#cue the cue

[manuelamordhorst]

Tipp: Jack O'Brien - Cue the Cue

26. Apr. – 20. Juli 2025 Kestner Gesellschaft Hannover Mit Cue the Cue präsentiert die Kestner Gesellschaft die erste institutionelle Einzelausstellung des britischen Künstlers Jack O’Brien in Deutschland. Die Schau verhandelt Themen wie Inszenierung, Sichtbarkeit, queere Identität und die zirkuläre Dynamik zwischen Konsum, Körper und Performance. Der Titel verweist auf das englische „cue“ – ein…

Tipp: Jack O'Brien - Cue the Cue

[ariadneofadhd]

Three and a Half things

I did a more in-depth version of this like 2 hours ago, but Tumblr crashed on me and it's gone. Since then my anxiety level has gone a bit ballistic (it's been very noticeable every day or the week so far for multiple reasons and me pushing myself quite hard) so I'm gonna keep this short-ish.

1. I really, really did not feel like going to therapy today, but did not lean into my avoidant patterns (entirely, I was still late) and went anyway. And the session was good. Not easy and not comfortable, but good nonetheless. I suspect that the current spike in anxiety might be a bit of an aftereffect of what we did today, talking about my 'homework' and me cautiously engaging with negative feelings I had this week instead of silencing, rationalising and avoiding them. Still, it's worth it, because I know that my therapist wants me to do that more and I myself want that for myself, no matter how hard, terrifying and exhausting it can get.

2. TDP season 4 is out and even tho I'm not over the moon with it (the rapid shifts in tonality felt odd to me and I wish they had more breathing room than the 9 episodes they got for the detailed story they clearly wanted to tell) it still made me laugh quite a lot and healthy, adult wlw relationship representation always has the potential to make me feel tremendously warm and fuzzy inside.

3. pride obviously, because dragging myself to therapy today was quite the feat and I was within an inch of leaving I sat down on the couch for the first couple of minutes.

[ariadneofadhd]

three and a half things on a Wednesday

1. ... the day was nice-ish actually, but there's a social anxiety overthinking loop stuck in my brain rn, so accessing something else for this is quite challenging + I feel ambivalent about picking something else anyway because ,despite said loop, what I liked best about today still concerns the amount of socialising I managed. Even if I only to initiated ca. 1/3 of it by myself and felt like the embodiment of an extremely nervous Chihuahua a couple of times (and it definitely showed in my tone of voice and body language despite me being 100% down with having a conversation).

2. the way the leaves were dancing in the wind on my commute - autumn is my favourite season for a good reason and that was a genuine 'isn't it marvelous to be alive and witness these small joys' moment for me, something my late grandma, for all her faults and hardships, had a talent for.

Oh and the very young, very adorable and very happy looking Golden Retriever I saw today.

3. I pick pride today - I participated actively and with high frequency in one of my college classes today, despite the presence of over 40 people, personal embarrassment over certain topics and my fear of public speaking/social anxiety running at an all time high at the moment. My ADHD makes my thought process a bit hard to follow for your average NT at the best of times, but I when I am nervous that tends to get amplified by a tenfold. Thus, I have to live with the knowledge that some people probably felt annoyed with a) how fast I talk, b) the occasional lack of coherence and c) the general rambliness of it all. Yet I still did it, because I am interested in the material and want to engage in class over it.