can i ask like michael jackson x fem reader, he comes back after his nose surgery and hes tryna hide it from her but she realises and shes like woah WHAT is going on, shes kinda mad but protectively yk? it can be angsty at the beginning but like supperrrrr fluffy at the end. mb if this is lwk so ass LMAO
Safety Blanket
ꫂ᭪݁ Pairing: Michael Jackson x f! reader
ꫂ᭪݁ Type: Oneshot (requested)
ꫂ᭪݁ Warnings: Angst, anxiety, mentions of bullying, insecurity, sfw, suggestive, fluff
ꫂ᭪݁ WC: 2.9k
A/N: I just wanted to say THANK YOU SO MUCH to the angel that requested this!! i’m so sorry it took me as long as it did to get to your request i literally only noticed it like 2 days ago im blind asf💀 honestly i leaped for joy at this request bc i’ve been running out of fic ideas so thank you!! and i hope i did your request well🥹 <3 Btw everything said by Joe about michael’s nose was what michael has stated in a interview!! this was not created by my own saying!!
With his head low, Michael sits in the backseat leather of Bill Bray’s Mercedes Benz. His dark sunglasses are pushed up extra high to cover the purple bruising around his eyes, his nose covered and protected in thick bandages.
“You okay son?”
Bill finally breaks the silence after sitting in it for at least 20 minutes. After driving him home from the medical centre, he'd been parked outside for what was starting to feel like forever. Michael was yet to move from his position and get out of the car.
He nods silently, unable to meet his eyes through the rear view mirror as his fingers continue to fidget with each other on his lap
"Whats on your mind?" Bill tries again softly, feeling deep empathy for the young artist who he sees as his own son.
Michael swallows hard as if trying to wash down his anxiety. After years of feeling insecure, having a low self image all mainly stemming from the bullying he endured from Joseph.
"Big nose"
"Ya aint get that nose and looks from me boy"
"Defo got it from ya mommas side"
Michael cringes inside hearing the replay of memories in his mind, and all the painful things that his father has said to him.
Today after weeks of privately having consultations with doctors and privately making this tough decision. Early this morning before sunrise whilst his family in hayvenhurst were still sound asleep, Michael got in Bills car and drove to get his first ever rhinoplasty done.
He was silent and worried because of guilt. Michael knew that he'd love his new nose and he knew it would take away the years of built up insecurities that he had.
But he wasn’t feeling guilty because he regretted what he did to his nose, he felt guilty because in the process of making this decision, he kept it from the most important person in his life. He kept it from someone who had always tried their hardest to kiss away his insecurities, to comfort and reassure him when his father made fun of him, defend him when his family would tease him.
Michael kept this...from you
"My angel....my angels on my mind Bill, i didnt...i didnt tell her."
The revelation weighs heavy in the car, Michael’s weak eyes lift up behind his dark shades to see Bill’s through the rear view mirror thats trained on the steering wheel as if trying to think of the right thing to say.
"You didn't tell her?" He finally responds
Michael shakes his head swallowing back tears behind his glasses
Bills expression softens seeing how hard he's swallowing, he knows the body language, he knows he's upset. Hes seen this side of Michael many times when hes stormed out of the house into his car after an argument with joseph.
"Look son...what's done is done alright? You put yourself first for once. You did this for you and im proud of ya.”
Michael slowly nods at his father like bodyguards words, finding it hard to sniffle his tears due to his sore nose
"Thanks Bill..im just worried y'know? what if i dont look good anymore?, what if she misses the way i looked before and don't wanna be w'me anymore?"
"Michael, from everything i've seen between the two of you, that girl is smitten. She's in love, anyone can see that."
Bill’s words slightly ease some of his anxiety as he looks out of the window to the outside of his family home.
"If anything, her reaction will prove that to you. If she's the right one and who you think she is, no matter how your appearance looks, she'll stick right by you."
After five minutes of getting reassurance and encouragement from Bill, michael thanks him leaning in to give him a hug that always heals the inner child in him before getting out of the car into his home straight to his bedroom where he locks himself in.
That night, michael tosses and turns in his bed his mine racing with thoughts at what your reaction might be. Would you be angry and break up with him? would you be sad and cry? would you be happy? did you secretly hate his old nose? would you love him more now?
He was supposed to see you tomorrow but now after his mind has come up with all the possibilities of what your reaction could be, how was he supposed to confidently see you? gosh he missed you so much it’s been three weeks since he last saw you due to his busy schedule.
But now that he was on his week off, he remembered he had promised you he’d see you as much as he could.
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Standing outside on the doorstep of your small apartment, he adjusts his black surgical mask and large sunglasses, he knows you’re gonna be confused and question it since he never visits you covering his face, but he doesn’t have the courage to fully show you the reason yet. He hopes you’ll understand.
With a shaky hand he presses his slender finger against the doorbell and within 5 seconds the door is flung open in excitement
“Mikey!!— why’ve you got that on your face?”
You chuckle but shake your head passing it off as your boyfriends usual silliness as you jump into his arms hugging him tightly
Michael hugs you back with equal tightness wrapping his large arms around you, burying his face into your neck to breathe in your scent through his mask— the only scent that gives him comfort and peace, the only one that removes his daily overthinking.
You truly were his safety blanket.
“Hi baby” He whispers into your neck pressing small kisses through the mask onto your skin
“Oh baby i’ve missed you so much, let me see your face! i wanna kiss you all over.”
You say with a gentle smile that tugs at his heart as you try to lift his mask
His hands immediately shoot up in defence to grab yours before you can start lifting the fabric
Your smile falters as you blink in confusion at the sudden movement from him
“Michael-”
“Cmon on baby, let’s head inside it’s cold out here” He cuts you off as he grabs your hand gently to enter your apartment
“Okay…come in i’ll make your favourite, freshly squeezed orange juice.” You respond still slightly confused by his actions outside but you brush it off - he’s probably just jet lagged you think.
He sits on the stool at the small kitchen island where you are squeezing a large orange through the juicer.
He’s so silent, more silent than usual, by now he would’ve been talking your ears off about his new song ideas, how lovely the weather was or about the random things that pass through that beautiful mind of his
But instead, he’s sitting on the stool drumming his fingers on his jeans, his gaze is focused on the counter top the large sunglasses and face mask is still concealing his face.
He hasn’t even registered the fact that you’ve placed the juice in front of him
“Mikey?” You call out gently
He jumps slightly at the sound of your voice which makes your expression turn from concern to worry
“Honey is everything okay?” You ask rounding the counter to stand beside him gently placing a warm soothing palm on his back
“Y-yeah no everything’s fine baby sorry i’m just tired that’s all…thank you for the juice my love.”
He says making no move to lift or take his mask off to drink it and still avoiding even turning his head in your direction
“You look real pretty today angel”
He speaks in attempt to change the topic, in reality it was true you looked gorgeous today in your baby blue sundress. He always loved you in blue.
“Well how would you even know baby you’re only seeing me through them dark large shades” You reply with a soft laugh before reaching your fingers forward to try and take at least his glasses off
At this, michael flinches backwards away from your hands making your own hands flinch back themselves.
“Okay michael what the hell is going on? you’re sitting here in a face mask and massive dark glasses and then you flinch whenever i try to take em off!?” You snap in frustrated concern
Seeing his shoulders shrink slightly, your eyes immediately widen before softening
“i…im sorry mike i didnt mean to raise my voice baby im just- im concerned y’know? You never usually act like this.”
Michael remains quiet, his heart breaking inside at the sound of your concerned voice, other than Bill and his mother, you were the only one who he truly believed cared for him.
He knows he shouldn’t be keeping this from you but he hates worrying you, and this new nose job of his? He knew it was going to worry you to death
“It’s okay baby, don’t apologise i just…” He starts off not knowing what to say
“Just what mike? did something happen to your face? did you get into a fight with jermaine again? i swear if he laid a hand on you i’ll-”
Under his mask he cracks a small smile for the first time in hours at the sound of you defending him. You always did, it was why Joseph disliked you because when you were around? joseph knew better than to try insult him.
Which is why his heart pangs in guilt thinking about how disappointed you’re gonna be in him to find out he listened to his father’s mean words, and actually changed his nose.
“No my love, i didn’t get into a fight i promise.”
“Then why are you hiding your face from me baby?” You frown “Did i do something wrong..?”
Did you do something wrong? he could feel his eyes watering at the sadness of your words. He hated making you sad.
“i missed you so much i haven’t seen you in weeks mikey, i just wanna see your handsome face, kiss your forehead, your nose, your lips.”
“No my angel you did nothing wrong…i did something wrong.”
His words make your worry intensify “Mike..what did you do?”
Knowing he can’t continue to hide it from you and you’re going to find out one way or another, he lifts his shaky hands to the arms of the large sunglasses before taking a deep breath and lowering them
The first thing you notice is his swollen deep purple bruised looking eyes with a thick white bandage between them where his nose rests
You gasp at the sight before reaching forward yourself and eagerly pulling off the black surgical mask, the full nose cast and nasal drip pad finally being revealed to you
He watches as your beautiful face scrunches up in horror and shock, the sight making the tears he was holding in start to roll down his cheeks as he looks away from you in shame
“Mike…”
“i-i know, i know i look hideous- you’re angry and you have every right to be-”
“Baby look at me” You cut off his rambling as he turns his head to you slowly, finally meeting your eyes for the first time since he’s arrived
Your eyes water gently reaching your fingertips forward to touch his bandaged nose
“I’m sorry…i shouldn’t have kept this from you” His shaky voice says
Memories of the things he’s told you in the past of how Joseph used to bully him with cruel words to make fun of his nose. The nose you loved so much, the nose you kissed every chance you got just to remind Michael of how beautiful he was.
Your concern turns into anger as you step back “Did Joseph make you do this? i’m going down there right now-”
Just as you were about to head to the front door you’re pulled back into his chest his arms wrapped around you from behind with his head resting on your shoulder
“N-no no he didn’t just…please don’t go i need you right now.”
His voice makes your heart shatter, you were concerned, worried and angry all in one. But your boyfriend needed you right now. He needed your comfort.
You turn around pulling him down by the back of his neck into your chest as you hug him tightly rubbing his back soothingly with your warm palm, he relaxes into you letting out all the emotions he’s been holding in
“Shh baby it’s okay…it’s okay baby, i’m not mad i’m just confused and worried my love.”
He nods into your neck gently before lifting his head up to look at you, keeping you close with his hands on your waist as if afraid you’ll pull away
“i…i got a rhinoplasty, yesterday morning.” Michael says, coming clean feeling the physical weight lift off of his chest as he tells you everything
“But…why baby? your nose…your nose was perfect.”
He shakes his head smiling sadly “I know you always loved it but..i didn’t like it. Even though joseph always made fun of me for it, i did this for me and nobody else.”
Despite the concern and sadness you feel at his decision, a flicker of pride fills you at the fact that Michael thought of himself for once. Your boyfriend was always selfless, always putting others and their decisions first even if it harmed him. But for once, he has decided to do something that he wants do.
He watches as you slowly nod in understanding, that’s his girl, this was one of the reasons Michael fell in love with you. You were the only one who he could come to and confess the things that deeply worried him and you’d never judge or make him feel worse, you always showed your utmost support.
“Mike…why didn’t you just tell me?”
His eyes soften seeing your almost hurt expression “I’m sorry angel, i guess i just thought that you wouldn’t like me anymore, or you’d think i was pathetic for doing this.”
You scoff softly “Not like you? think you’re pathetic? michael do you think i’m with you because of your outward appearance?”
He doesn’t know what to say, all the girls he was with in the past were only with him for either his fame, family or his looks. You were the first girl to actually be with him without wanting to gain anything.
“Michael i’m with you because of this.” You say resting your palm over his chest where his heart is currently beating fast
Just when he thought he couldn’t fall more in love with you, you go ahead and say this. His anxiety was wrong. Everything his brain had predicted was wrong. He thought you would ran away and leave him for good the minute he showed you his face but right now you’re staring up at him with the same love in your eyes that’s always been there
“I love you Michael. Nose job or not. You’ll always be beautiful to me.”
Before you can process what happens next, you feel the warmth of Michael’s soft lips on yours as he kisses you with passion cupping the side of your face
You return the kiss with equal measure smiling into it as you caress your thumb against his cheek
When he pulls his lips away he looks down at you with the same handsome smile that makes your insides feel like butterflies
“There he is” You whisper teasingly making him blush shyly “Never be sad again okay angel face? your smile suits you.”
Michael continues to look at you as if you were the only thing in the world that mattered to him— because you were.
“God i love you so much.”
Your face lights up with a smile at his words as you gently kiss his bandaged nose
“I love you more mikey.”
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Sitting together cozied up on your warm couch together by the fire pit, your cheek rests on his chest listening to his now calm and soothing heartbeat
Michael’s anxiety and worries are now long gone, the most important person to him has accepted his new appearance and that’s all he needs to know you’ve got his back forever. Drawing lazy circles on your back and giving your head gentle kisses, he says
“Angel?”
“Hm baby?” You softly respond as you lift your head up to look at him
He looks back down at you caressing your cheek with his knuckles gently
“You think m’gonna look good with my new nose?”
You sit up properly with a smirk “You’re wondering if you michael freaking jackson my boyfriend will look good with his new nose?”
He groans hiding his face in his hands in shyness “stop it” You giggle getting on top of him straddling him to gently remove his hands from his face
“aht aht, you’ve hid this gorgeous face from me enough today.” you tease leaning down to kiss his lips lovingly before pulling back
“To answer your silly question, baby i think you’d look good even if you had a clown nose on.”
Michael bursts out laughing causing you to have your own laughing fit
“Oh yeah?” He smirks
“Yeah”
“You’d still kiss and give me love hm?”
“Oh i’d give you more than a kiss and love” You reply matching his smirk
Michaels eyes darken at your words
“Come show me then”
With that comment, the rest of the evening and night is spent in sensual romantic passion. And afterwards? Michael made sure to never be insecure again.
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