Please, please, please just read what I have to say. I know this is petty. I know this is fucking shameful of me. I know this is none of my business. I know i know i know but just...please just read it.
To Cat Princess Noro.
I had a feeling. I saw the post. I am sorry I cannot bring you happiness. I know you will probably cry about this but it is ok Noro. It will be ok. Everything will be ok noro!! You're strong. You showed me that. Honestly you could have told me. I don't know if you have read my letter...but that's alright. Don't sweat it, Noro. If you did though...I am still adamant about what I wrote. If not then it is pretty much saying that, I do want to move to California. I said I did not before because it's such a scary thing at first. I'm used to everyone here but after my latest visit, I realized you are home. I'm sorry it caused you to feel like we have no future. I really have thought about living together and having kids. I was serious about naming them Drake hahaha. I thought we were going to get married and spend old age together. I wanted to talk to you about it when I visit. That it would be better if you find a place and then I could move in since I don't know how I could have visit the places myself without seeing them.
Things change. I understand.
Feelings are different. I know.
But the most important thing is that it's about you and your happiness.
I got you the wallet because I wanted to give it to you as your birthday present.
I got you the disney pass because it's "The Happiest Place"
I shouldn't have but I don't know what to do...I'm lost, Noro...I really am..but I will be ok...
I'm sorry I couldn't do enough. I'm sorry I cause you pain, and many nights of crying.
I really thought you were my SO.
There is no one else that I know that I have ever connected to on this level.
Whether things work out for you or not, I'm always here...but you said you would not be contacting me anymore so..I don't know what to do.
You will be ok Noro. I wish you happiness. Everything will be ok.
Hey Noro...do you think we will know each other till the end of our life? Do you really think when we are even older we will not meet? I'm scared...I'm really scared. I met this amazing person, and for so long I have always wanted to be with you. I don't regret talking to you even though you were younger than me. I would do it all over again just to help you grow up.
I'll be ok. Although David is diagnosed with depression so I have to talk to him while pretending I'm ok...
I wish we could talk.
I don't want to be left alone...but I will be ok.
I will try to get my drivers license. I have plans about being a nurse so I am going to motivate myself. I'll be busy but if I can do it then I can be better financially off. I can move to Cali if I do it. But even if you don't talk to me anymore. Even if you don’t want to see me anymore if I move, it will be ok. Even if life wants to keep bringing me down, I will get through it. I thought to myself I couldn't imagine me with anyone else. I would rather be that 50 cat person.
Haha..I always wanted doggos and cats with you. I miss Tux..I miss Teddy...
I never even got to meet them. It’s not fair…it’s not fair at all.
I'll be ok. I pretend things are okay with us by reading old messages. It is helping me cope even if it's not true. It still makes me cry..I've been crying every day that my eye is completely swollen. I will make sure to eat. I will make sure to get sleep. I will take care of myself.
You’re beautiful.
You’re wonderful.
You were the most amazing thing in my life. I wish I could have appreciate it even longer.
@cutestfriend
