#cuttng

[princesslime-blog1]

it’s sand time

[lazy-medstudent]

I did it

Have you ever thought that something was too much, too overwhelming? Like you cant take it anymore everypiece of crap that life throws at you? it all accumulated in your mind. the thought that you have failed every single thing that you care about. everyone that you loved and counted on you.

the pain. it’s eating at your soul. the guilt guides you to even darker path.

I was told that it was wrong. looking for an escape from my own mind. I wanted to feel something else. no matter what it is. the devil inside showed me this way is easier. that pain will go away if i can manifest it physically. so I just grab my special knife, the red one. I start cutting, very tiny cut in my finger.

the devil is right. it hurts. but it’s good hurts. the sight of blood was a new one. for whole 3 days it keep grounded me. I’m still not happy but at least i didn’t feel like death is a better way.