OK so I’m gonna do one more like speech to text thing because I want to write about a dream I had last night I’m probably not gonna edit it though at least not right now. Basically in the stream we were in Florida mean the whole family. Me Cyrina and Cara we’re holding hands and running together through the beach laughing we were having a really good time I was a really pretty moment in my dream I could just see us all smiling and laughing it was really nice. We were running and I looked and I saw jacob and what might have been Lauren and Chloe. in my dream I didn’t see them but I saw he was with other people and I think maybe later in my dream I found out that it was them but I’m pretty sure it was all of them. Obviously I was really freaked out. Me and him made eye contact and I just kind of stared at him and we kept running and I just kind of like laughed it off and pretended like it was fine. I didn’t want to seem upset in front of him. When we got back to the condo I asked my sisters if they saw him and they said yes. I asked if they knew he was going to be there and they were quiet. I asked again “did you guys know he was going to be here?“ Cyrina said yes I knew. Carrah was quiet. I said “I didn’t know that you were talking to him again“ Cyrina said yeah and so what? And I said why why why is he here? She said I told him we were going to be here so he came. My family was like “ anybody can come to Florida it’s no big deal.“ I said it is a big deal why did you tell him I was going to be here? And I got really upset and I asked do you guys even care about me? Do I feel like you want me to kill myself. Would you even care if I died call? Taylor shook his head no and Cyrina said no. Mom and Cara were quiet. I cried in and walked away from them and avoided Jacob andThe rest of them. It was really sad that in my dream nobody cared if I died. I feel like it’s a real reflection of how I’m feeling right now. So yeah I just wanted to record this.
