#daddy irl

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So, I'm not a great head space these days.

I'm working OT every week to make ends meet for my wife and kids because the economy is out of control and my contract is ending soon, so I dont know if I'll be able to find a job immediately. I'm still fighting the debt from my last extended unemployment period.

I'm in constant shock and worry over friends and family both in Gaza and in Lebanon (I'm Lebanese American), and angry all the time that our government is not just complicit, but actively and enthusiastically funding genocide.

I'm fighting depression, insomnia, and the ever present pain from the damage in my back.

And I just found out that everything I've been doing to try and get healthier has caused my liver to get worse and gall stones to form from rapid weight loss.

I'm just... I just don't know what to do. Everything seems like Hell right now. I cant even write smut without feeling guilty that I might be promoting misogyny or worse when I'm just trying to enjoy kink.

Life is fucked, y'all.

I know nobody reads my IRL posts, but for anyone who did, thank you. Venting helps a little, even if I am just screaming into the Void.

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Literally me when Ricky showed up last night.

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Well, shit. I'm officially 40. I'm honestly not sure how I feel about it.

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Non-horny post, could all you witches out there light a candle for my dad today. They might have a liver for him, but we don't know for certain yet.

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Non-horny post

So, my 17 YO NB AFAB told me yesterday that they want to be more masc because they think I'm cool and want to be like me, and holy shit I wanted to cry.

I love this kid so much.

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Surgery update:

I've been home a while, and I'm feeling okay.

I am slightly in trouble with wifey, though.

Apparently, the doctors gave some specific "Do not" instructions, which I do not remember at all because anesthesia.

So, of course, I've already violated like 4 of them.

And she real mad.

She's gone full protective lioness on me to the point where she, my she, introverted, autistic wife, just left the house in a fury to go chew out the pharmacy because they still haven't filled my pain medication prescription. I pity those people.

I feel so loved ❤️🧡💛

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"My name is Lazlo, and this is my good lady wife, Nadja."

I'd say we pulled it off rather well.

Happy Halloween!!!

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Well, my NB 17-year-old busted me moderately molesting their giggling mother in the laundry room.

Oops

Their look of disapproval will forever be etched into my mind with a chuckle.