innocence / sebastian+kj
KJ had always had a goal - to lose his virginity by his nineteenth birthday, and yet, here he was with three days to go, nowhere near achieving that goal. He hadn’t even come close. He’d only ever kissed one boy, and that was nothing more than a quick peck to the lips that hadn’t gone any further. All he had was his hand, and a desperate desire to lose his innocence while he was still young and desirable. All his friends had their first times years before, and the longer it went, the more desperate KJ had become. He used to have all these ideas for how he wanted it to go. He’d wanted romance, a man who meant the world to him, flowers and Disney dreams. All he wanted now was something.
And so he’d turned to Grindr. Perhaps listing himself as a “virgin who wants to get fucked” in his profile was reckless. Perhaps he’d come to regret it in the future. That didn’t matter to the boy, all that mattered was the experience he craved. He wanted to know how it felt. He wanted to be able to say he’d done it. He’d had a few guys show interest, which was nice. None of them compared to Sebastian. He was insanely attractive, tall, a top, and those eyes...it was all about those eyes. They’d sent a few messages back and forth - no photos - and maybe it was impulsive, maybe it was naive, but KJ felt really good about him. He felt like he could trust him. And the guy wanted to fuck him, which was exactly what he’d wanted! Sebastian had said that he was staying in a hotel, that KJ could come over, have a drink, see what happened...and KJ had swallowed his nerves, told the man he’d be there in thirty minutes, and shown up at the door in twenty.
Standing in the hallway, outside the man’s door, he felt his stomach rolling, nerves trying to stop him from knocking. But he wanted this. He needed this. And so he knocked.
