Jealous
Summary: First kisses scare everyone, right?! RIGHT?!
A/N: I have had this sitting in my documents for a little while now. Thought i should get around to posting it!
“Let’s Go please!” Seb yells up the stairs of my apartment. I sigh, rolling to the other side of the bed and looking at the clock.
“Why are you even here?!” I yell back. I hear some stomping before my door opens. Seb stands at the door. “Yes Best Friend?”
“I would like to treat my best friend to our usual coffee date! Why are you still in bed?!” He asks as he marches over to my bed. He reaches under the covers and reaches at my ankles. He pulls me towards him, earning a loud cry as i try to hold onto the warmth the bed gave me.
“Can’t you just bring the coffee to me?! I don’t want to leave my warm bed!” I cry as i try to crawl back under the covers like a mouse escaping the crazy gaze from the hungry cat. In this case, Seb being my hungry cat.
“Because you know i will get swarmed with paps and then you will never get your coffee.” Seb tries to explain as he pounces on the bed. He searches the covers till he was straddling my hips and holding my arms to my chest as i giggled loudly.
“Okay, FINE! I will go. But under one condition!” I call as his finger threatened to continue their tickle attack.
“And that is?” He asks, arching his eyebrow.
“That you get rid of that god awful hat! I am not walking out with disguised Sebastian Stan. You look stupid and everyone still knows it’s you anyways. Stop taking advice from Chris. Those just don’t work!” I confess, Seb’s face dropping a little.
“You really think my hat is stupid?!” He asks. I nod my head slowly, starting to regret my statement. “You know what is stupid?! Your inability to lose it when i tickle the crap out of you!” His fingers being their attack once more, roaming my whole body while i fought to get his massive body off of mine.
“STOP IT! I can’t breath!” I finally cry out, my lungs trying to catch what little air was being dragged into them. “Please! I need.” I take in a very airy breath. “My inha-ha.” My eye rolls back into my head, my body going limp under Seb’s body. Sebastian stops his actions, watching as i lay perfectly still.
“Y/N… Stop messing around.” He says, shaking me. “Stop it! This is not funny!” He starts to panic, getting off of me and climbing off the bed. He runs into my bathroom, finding my inhaler, bringing it back to me. He shakes it and goes to sit me up before i start to giggle at him. He stops all actions once more, dropping me on the bed.
“Oh come on! You would think you would stop falling for that trick!” I call after him as he stomps into the hallway.
“And you would think to stop doing that trick all together! It’s so mean!” Seb calls back, entering my room. I giggle a little more before he walks back to my bed. I reach my hand out to him, pulling him onto the bed.
“Don’t be so sensitive then.” I mumble as he crawls on top of me. He smiles down at me as he dipped his head slowly, till our lips almost touched. “I’m jealous of the way that hat actually looks on you.”
“Oh really now?” He whispers. I nod my head, smiling before pushing him up and off of me.
“Let’s go get you that coffee my good sir.” I say nervously as I go to rummage through my closet. He stands there before finally opening his mouth.
“Why won’t you let me kiss you?” He asks. I stop my movements, standing perfectly still with my back to him. “Am I really that ugly?”
“No. That’s not it at all!” I turn to face him finally.
“I’m jealous of the rain. That falls on your skin. It’s closer than my hands have been. I’m jealous of the wind. That ripples through your clothes. It’s closer than your shadow. I always wish you the best of all this world could give you. Tell me all I can do. It’s hard for me to say, I’m jealous of the way everything gets to touch you before I ever will.”
“Seb….”
“I’m jealous of the night. The ones I spend alone while your wrapped up in your covers, warm. I’m jealous of the thoughts that run in your head. Because your mind is beautiful. I’m jealous of the sunlight. The way it holds your curves while you dance in the light. I’m jealous of the tears that slip down your face. They hold and take the pain away like I should…. I’m sorry. I’ll just. I’ll be back with coffee.”
“Sebastian please stop. It is not you. It’s me. I’m afraid I won’t be what you expected. You deserve the best lover and what if it’s not me. I’m afraid you will walk out that door. Disappointed. My tears reminding me of my pain. The sunlight bringing back the unwanted happy memories. The nights leaving me cold and lonely. The wind pushing me further into depression. The rain reminding me of the way your hands held me so lovingly. I’m sorry if I’ve ever made think you were less than amazing to me.” I confess, tears hitting the both of us. “I want to be everything you are to me.”
“I love you.” He blurts. No one had said it yet. You guys haven’t even kissed and you were already head over heels for this man.
“I love you too…” I say back. The love in our eyes being wrapped up in swift motion as he pulls my face to his, our lips finally connecting. The fireworks, sparks, butterflies, flashes of light, warmth, and love all wrapped up in one connection. Our lips fitting perfectly as I sink from my tiptoes back to my heels. His head dipping down with my movements, not wanting to break the connection. But air became a needed thing, pulling apart and pressing our foreheads together.
“I don’t know about you. But that was amazing. I could do it over and over again till I died. Then my spirit would search for yours just so I could continue kissing you for all of eternity.” Sebastian whispers to me. His sweet words forcing more tears down my face.
“It’s so easy for you to spill your feelings. It’s so unfair how simple it is for you.” I mumble.
“Just you existing is how you show me your love. It’s in the actions you do. The way you laugh at my shittt jokes. The coffee runs. The actual runs. Late night movies and take out dinners. Cuddles. Stories of your life. Everything holds love when you do it.” Sebastian says before smiling softly. He leans down once more, catching my lips once again.
All eternity sounds like forever, but spent with you.. I could do eternity by your side.
