I should be a single father of at least four kids. I'd have a specific schedule to keep everything on track, and I'd take us all out frequently to parks and the like. <3
I miss the feeling of pushing a stroller while cradling a toddler on my hip, another walking by my side. The transdad dysphoria is getting to me.
I've not technically been a "parent", yet I still miss it. I crave having little ones to take care of. That special softness that comes when cradling a sleeping baby, or helping a kiddo color a picture. Being a dad is truly in my very DNA.
I've frequently had dreams the past 2-3 years that I was a father of two. Usually, it's twin boys. Last night it was also twins, but a girl and a boy instead.
I miss all of my dream children. I hope everyone who has similar dreams doesn't mourn the people that existed there too badly.
I remember when I was a kid, I had so much interest in my grandmother's porcelain doll collection to the point she gave me one of my favorites. A little girl in a lacey, frilly dress. I loved wiping her face clean and just sitting with her. <3
I hope I'll be able to get her back some day, haha.
Any other trans-parents out there who showed "signs" even as a kid?
Hey, I'm Ray. But feel free to call me any variation of dad.
This blog is for me to explore some of my trans-IDs. I'll only be making SFW posts on here, but I'll make a blog for other posts at some point.
I'm bodily in my early 20s, and I'd rather bodily minors just not interact in any way. :) Sorry, kids, but it makes me uncomfortable and messes with my POCD. I'm also anti-contact for the big 3.