It's been 50 years since the day we fought for our freedom, and yet I can't help but feel sadness today.
Extremism is rising, sexism, xenophobia, and prejudice are growing, and inside most houses, there's still violence and anger destroying our families and women.
Yes, we achieved many things, but it is not enough.
It’s a bittersweet day and today I’m incredibly sad.
Bc who cares? I have 20 AUS to write! Finish writting tbh! 4 are fruk and the rest rusame as expected... So I hope that this year I finally get to finish these fuckers bc at least 5 are in the middle... So... Yeah damn. Reunited all my papers and docs and will pass the crap to word but it will take time... Damn... Meanwhile job hunt and drawing more is my plans so... I hope to get shit done this year since last year I got nothing done!
I just feel so sad... almost numb to everything and it's killing me... I hope it passes by quickly bc i can't even properly talk... I just have to make a huge effort... even to write this... So... sorry if I don't reply or just disappear for a while. Queue is running.
Gilbert was never that strange but today he acted really strange. As soon Alfred greeted him, fist on the air as ever he made an excuse and quickly walked away.
Okay, maybe he is exaggerating but everyone is a little bit different to him today… Gilbert is one of many.
Francis didn’t hug him as usual, a pat on the back and ran to Alfred’s brother. Arthur kept distance and scowled more than usual and the Italian guys seemed to be avoiding him.
Which is quite strange since Alfred is friend with those guys… More or less.
Ivan is the only one acting normal around him, if a little bit more happy than usual.
That happiness may have something to do with Alfred since Alfred kissed him the week before.
They didn’t talk about it but Alfred knows Ivan enjoyed it as much as himself. Yeah, he’s the man.
Besides Ivan is handsome and tall and looking at him… Shit.
Alfred could feel his cheeks warming and turned away. They should totally talk about it but Alfred made his move, swept away the gir-… er-. Boy and kissed him full on the lips. Movie style.
Sadly Ivan kept content just kissing and heavy rubbing against him. Which is fine by Alfred but he’s a guy of action and well… To be honest he prefers to take it slowly. Is not like they are dating or something, it’s all very private. Alfred enjoys the secrecy of it all even if he would rather be displayed as the awesome boyfriend of the year.
Still he doesn’t understand why the guys are acting like that. The girls seem normal enough, a few looks here and there but he is quite the charmer (not) and is used to it (not).
Ivan keeps moving gleefully on his side until he goes to Yao who almost is forced to wave to Alfred.
Alfred though, feels strange. Those guys are actually making him uneasy.
The day went by without much problems. Spanish was his last lesson and his table partner is a cool guy. Antonio is his name and he went happily about how cute is the spring and spring love is the best and Alfred really doesn’t understand why he keeps talking about love and spring. Shouldn’t he be talking about the soccer game he saw last night as usual?
He guesses today is just the strangest day ever and carries on with his life.
Matthew, his brother looks at him strangely the next morning.
He keeps staring at Alfred as if he’s mad with him and Alfred swears that this time he didn’t ate all the pancakes. (almost all of them…)
Placing his laptop on the bag pack he turns to Matthew frowning.
“What?”
The levelled look Matt gives him is slightly angry.
“Don’t you have something to tell me?” Matt asks softly as if trying to read him.
“Not really…” he says confused.
“About some Russian?” he tries again but Alfred just frowns.
“Told ya what happened… A few kisses here and there…” he murmurs looking around. Ivan will kill him if he knows he told Matt.
“Alfred. I know.” he states and Alfred just looks at him.
“Your relationship with Ivan!” He says a bit more harshly and Alfred blinks.
“Yeah, a guy like me can’t wait forever… He just doesn’t make a move back!” he says a little sad and a little mad. Really, Ivan could not be as gentle with him…
“Al… are you dating him or not?” Matthew asks accessing the situation and Alfred frowns.“
’‘Not that I am aware.” He grins. He would be the first knowing duh… sometimes he doesn’t understand his brother slowness.
“Hum… Well… You should talk to Ivan then…” He murmured softly and Alfred frowned.
“Why?”
“Well he…” Matt bit his lip and sighed. “He’s intimidating everyone…”
“What’s new?” he asks stretching his arms above his head.
“Keeping people from you… because you know… he’s your boyfriend and all….” he finished rather quietly and Alfred blinked.
“What?”
“Sorry Al but he is quite adamant that you are dating him and is 'protecting’ his territory.”
Alfred flushed. First ashamed then angry and yelled.
“That fucker!”
When he got to school he looked for Ivan but his schedule was different so he would have to wait and damn, Alfred is not a patient man.
Fucking Ivan making his friends avoid him like the plague and not even letting Alfred know they are dating…
A smile tries to grow on his face but he doesn’t allow it. He’s pissed off even if the thought makes him nervous and with a slight bellyache.
Ivan came to him and hugged him, a little bit tight and Alfred almost forgot he was mad.
He looked up crossing his arms and glared at Ivan who looked at him with calm innocence and confusion.
“What’s wrong Alfred?” he asked looking at him intently and Alfred grabbed his arm and dragged him through the corridor to keep their talk private.
“You fucker! Are you threatening my friends?” He asked enraged and Ivan simply looked at him with his fucking calm smile.
“I never threatened anyone, just made sure everyone respected my love and kept away from touching what is mine.” He stated simply and looked so unaware he wanted to punch him. And kiss him… and punch him a bit more.
“I am not your propriety! I belong to no one!” he yelled making Ivan look to him sadly.
“I thought… ”
“No. People are not items, they have no owners!” He sighed and Ivan blinked.
“But I don’t want people to think they can touch what is mine.” he said with a slight dreary expression growing on his face and Alfred glared and warned.
“Ivan!”
“So we are no longer lovers?” Ivan asked and Alfred flushed.
“I was not aware that we were even dating!” He admitted bitterly.
“I thought that was clear since we kissed…” he murmured flushing and Alfred sighed with a slight warmth on his chest.
“Well.. you never asked me to date you.” Alfred admitted and puffed his cheeks making Ivan glow in realization.
“Oh. I am so sorry- Will you date me then?” Ivan asked and Alfred grinned kissing him.
“I do believe this means yes, right?” Ivan asked and Alfred completely forgot his anger and kissed Ivan again.
I had the most productive 2 days ever! Finally finished some stuff and organized my room then watched the Sherlock special which was lovely as always / the subtext/ and finally ended the season finale of Hannibal! Was gorgeous, glorious, amazing! I am still deeply moved... Nods
