#rlupdate

[palavenmoons]

Update

Hello everyone, apologies for the silence. I figured I owe an explanation to all of you so here it is... thank you for taking the time to read this.

The reason for my lack of feedback/replies/postings is because I have been at the hospital. I was able to return home yesterday and, was hoping to catch up with post and work Monday the latest -  but I may have to return back in this weekend again as progress is being less than good. Here is to hoping it turns the other way around.

Being a foreigner in the country, this must have been one of the worst experiences so far - not only because of the horrible and painful situation on itself, but also due to the lack of warmth and containment in general.

I hope I get better soon. I know it will take a while.

Thank you all for reading and wishes ahead of time. I’ll be doing my best.

[endlesscolddreams]

Real life update

Central comic fest was cool! There was another misa there! Now I'll finish my 3 cosplays for the comic con Portugal! They are 3. Potterhead, done. Walker, almost done. Shinoa Hiragi. The weapon is almost done and i already have the fabric for the costume and wig! Now... Ramblings that no one cares but I feel like taking them out of my system. Meanwhile i feel dumb! Can't concentrate and keep my trail of thought! Can't really get what is said to me... And it's worse than before which means I m getting dumber by the second! Is like I can't focus and my mind is elsewhere but I don't even know where... i won't even blame the meds since I am sure is not it... News... Job hunt is on going but no luck there tbh. Art studies are going on too but I think I need motivation to find my path... I'll stick to design and build a strong portfolio based on that. I hope... I guess i am not cut out to be artist at all... Life limitations can be hard and makes us unable to succeed in what we once loved and still love. I have been in a rather philosophical state, which means I take all with me to the sad hole of darkness i side me, so I stopped writing but i think I'll start writing again... No pressure tho... I am trying to not pressure myself to much! I have to learn to chill! And I am learning to worry about myself and take care of me so... I guess that's good... I will reply to the fic requests soon btw! Sorry that I am rambling and do not talk much... You are always welcome to say something tho! Love you guys! And yes I notice your hearts, likes and reblogs! I cheer inside anytime i see some of you on my activity and love all my dash! Hugs! Keep being awesome guys!

[endlesscolddreams]

I just feel so sad... almost numb to everything and it's killing me... I hope it passes by quickly bc i can't even properly talk... I just have to make a huge effort... even to write this... So... sorry if I don't reply or just disappear for a while. Queue is running.