i think the thing you dont understand is how much i did love it. i loved the difficulty, i loved the way it felt to feel at one with complexity, i loved the connections it made in my brain. what i specifically hate is you. i hate how you ruined it. you made me feel like my work was for nothing, like my understanding was old news. you tossed everything i had worked for aside for second-hand understanding done by second-hand machines. and frankly, you did something so awful as to make it my fault. you constantly had this lassez faire attitude about importance, about other people. there was user and there was administrator, and these two beings were neither human. human is the authentic being at the center of all. you simply cannot ignore mass suffering to benefit artificial structures with the hope it improves things far in the future. you can take actionable steps now, you can do exciting things, you can be greater than what is. leave computer science. please.