i dont understand how i can always have the thing happen to me where i like someone and they like me back online but ive never once had it happen in person like i get that im not conventionally attractive or anything and it takes a bit of work to take me from a -5 to maybe a 6 and its not that i hate myself its that i hate my body that i think so lowly of myself but dont get me wrong i fucking love my boyfriend and i would and will go to the ends of the earth for him and kill for him or take a bullet for him i just want to know why it had to happen online why i fell in love with someone i know very well i may never get to meet face to face and that scares me so fucking much i just wish he lived down the street instead of down south.