Can you give some small steps for becoming shameless? Just a couple low-risk things to do
practice small indulgences, starting with things you can do for self soothing.
permit yourself to enjoy more music art and stories made by and for queer communities, and that includes the works of furries.
i personally recommend music artists such as Daxbak, 4lung (if you okay with the edgier side of AB/DL art), and Whsprs. the first two have done countless works for the community, and Whsprs has great queer music works in general and has colabbed with Daxbak.
for art, many good webcomics exist. Nivlek features several characters who just wear diapers with no need for elaboration.
Shine is about the journey of someone discovering the community in a chance encounter and learning about where she fits into it.
Incontinent Student Body is literally about a bunch of college students befriending each other because of their shared continence issues.
Concession (while being an edgier work that tackles some p dark subject matter) predominantly features a main character who's diaper fetish is often lightly joked about but never outright mocked. Matt, the one i'm referring to, is my all time favorite piece of gay representation in fiction and i relate to him a great deal.
furthermore, indulge in songs you find comforting and nostalgic, especially ones you found too cute to be proud of listening to. for me that was Carameldansen, Bumblebee (nightcore), Always by Erasure, literally ALL of Aqua's discography but especially Cartoon Heroes.
partake in cartoons you secretly enjoyed as well, for me that was Lazy Town, Strawberry Shortcake, and Blue's Clues.
by allowing yourself to indulge in art you resonate with, you can get in touch with aspects of yourself that have been left to gather dust, to nurture them into cherished and loved facets of your own heart.
once thats done, find little things you can do or get without drawing ire from others. is there a plush toy you can get? good hugging buddy and bedtime companion. got Audible? get yourself some juvenile books for bedtime stories. cant get a pacifier? suck your thumb when you have the privacy to do so.
these things may seem small, but every freedom you afford yourself is like life giving water in a desert of repression and shame.
:( forgive me for taking so long to reply, it is shameful i took this long. you deserve to enjoy your life on YOUR terms.
every step is a step forward, even the baby steps, ESPECIALLY the baby steps.
