What a performance, Folks! Sadly the show has come to a temporarly end. But we're so glad you stuck around with our strange antics!
Haha, okay drop the act now, this never was an rp blog after all. Now it's the time for my final big yap:
Time files by fast, doesn't it? It's like I just posted day 1 yesterday lol
Now, not to be dramatic..- okay who am I trying to convince? I cannot be not dramatic haha. My biggest flaw always was that I take thing WAY too seriously, and just like that, that was the biggest problem with this blog as well.
I took it all way more seriously that I should've & got burnt out real bad. I didn't allow myself a break, I kept telling that it's bc I don't want to dissapoint, but actually I was just trying to hold onto the thing that gave me purpose.
Before it, I barely had anything to do each day after school; I only rarely met up with friends, I don't really have hobbies, I gave up on music and sport, & video games/movies/series could only entertain for a while,
I didn't just have any good way to spend my free time & I felt like I was wasting my life away.
But there was one thing I wanted to do for years now: is to be a content creator.
With many trials and errors, I went with many different usernames, personas & content types. But After some time, I landed on what i have now: Milo Blues, a name that I fully claimed as my own & it's not just simply my username (as in Milo became my choosen name, yk🏳️⚧️;3). But I still didn't have anything to present; my insta page flopped & my youtube was/is still nowhere;
But somehow, I got into deltarune; & with the new chapter releases, I become obsessed with the game, and the way I tend to do with any media I hyperfixate on, I get super attached to a character and/or a ship.
So that happend, it was Tenna who was my big fave. But I only started to care about the Mikes after I found 2 dr artists who started to draw them alot; they were one of the few at that time who cared about these characters, I didn't really hear anyone else talk about them. Not to mention the idea to ship them together? Like the Mikes with their Boss? It was strangely & rare concept.
But I heared that Tumblr is a minefield with dr ship art and it's guaranteed that I'd find what I'm looking for. And no suprise, I did find,
But it's wasn't enough, I was convinced that there must be a blog that's dedicated to all these characters at once, but to my suprise there wasn't. So came the brilliant idea that I should make my own, it would be a great way to boost my wannabe internet artist persona! And a daily blog is something I never tired before, it sounds fun! Well that was a little naive.
But, I still think it was actually a good decision, the idea was great - getting to draw characters I love every day, it actually helped cure my art procrastion, and made me get better at drawing as well.
& Tumblr is probably the most easily managable sites I've been on, and the people here are mostly super nice, (like way too nice, the internet is suppose to be a place full of terrible people, why is everyone just so nice to me here?? /J /silly). I'm not saying that it's perfect, but after being on places like insta, deviantart(🤢), vk, + others; Tumblr is the best one imo.
But this constant posting for 200 days was too much for me, I realised that I'm not mentally stable enough for this.
I always questioned, how do all the other daily accounts hold up so well? What am I doing wrong?
Well the anwser is easily: they know their limits.
I know them too, but I still pushed too far. I fear I ruined everything for yall and for myself. If I could restart with my current knowledge , I'd do things differently. Or at least I think I would, I tend to fall into the same mistakes over and over. The dumb bird has to hit it's head into the window glass multiple times, before it realises that it can't fly through.
So I learned my lession, and I'm going on a hiatus like promised. How long? I don't know, def 2+ months but take it with a grain of salt.
But in the meantime, I want to do other things, & start a second blog with art of other medias and ocs. Once it's set up (it'll take a week or 2) I'll let you know, I mean if anyone would be interested in my different types of work. Let me know if you do
Also even if I return to this blog, I doubt that it could be fully daily again, so timely or twice a week, I'm not sure yet.
But anyways, thank you for reading alloff dis , and thank you to everyone who liked/rebloged/commented on my posts, thank you to my 134 followers (we beat my insta account yippie thanks a million for that as well) & my mutuals, you all mean so much, I love you guys like my good friends<3
So thank you & goodnight ♥️ stay joyful, cringe and pluey:3
