#daz rambles

[deathwaltz-ao3]

me when i am on my mutuals' blogs 👀👀👀 #LetsTakeALook👀 #Observing👀

[imallergictomyself]

Nikolai who stops wearing cologne, one day.

It’s not because he can’t afford it, not in the slightest.

Not because he ran out, absolutely not, he’s on top of everything. Spares upon spares.

Not because he’s suddenly turned against the stuff, either.

No, it’s because Price mentioned it makes his nose sting.

It’s the same reason Price stopped buying fabric conditioner. Nikolai always seemed to spend too much time tugging at his clothes when he used the stuff, too much time in bed tossing and turning, too much time massaging reddening shoulders. Nik was allergic, and so Price happily accepted the slightly coarser jackets.

The same reason Nikolai cooked steak to medium rare, instead of his preferred very. He knew Price always struggled a bit with unclean food, always struggled with the fear of food poisoning, especially given he never had the chance to take such liberties as a child.

Same reason Price let Nik into his office. He loathed people in his space. Freaked him out. Preferred having a space to himself, a place that wasn’t filled with shouts and arguing and warmth and people. Rather, a space alone. But when Nik stumbled onto base after a 22-hour flight, Price unlocked it without a second thought.

[deathwaltz-ao3]

[deathwaltz-ao3]

i love people actually . i think humans are beautiful and even if we can be cruel and mean there is still joy and kindness and hope and love . and we should talk about the bad things but we shouldnt forget the beauty in every atom

[deathwaltz-ao3]

i make new mutuals and rhen i get scared to interact with them #mylife

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i love spamming my mutuals #MyMutuals

[imallergictomyself]

Nikolai takes Price out to every match, or musical, or meeting, every concert, or conference, or convention, that he can find.

Because he didn’t get the chance to go out, where he was before. He didn’t get to experience the world around him. Nikolai didn’t get to leave the bubble he grew up in, because it’s hard to go anywhere at all with nothing to your name.

Price, if he’s honest, hates it. The next time he gets dragged out to some drag show he doesn’t give two shits about, or a five-hour lecture about some old Latin bullshit, he swears that he’ll kill someone.

That is, until he glances up at Nikolai on the train home. The way he’s smiling, mostly to himself, before looking away and out the window.

From that night onwards, Price shows up when he asks without hesitation. Whether abroad, or local, he goes to Nikolai’s side.

Because as much as he may hate spending hours in sweaty convention halls, watching his back, he hates Nikolai being sad more.

[imallergictomyself]

Nikolai’s teaching Price to fly.

It’s late, late enough that they’re probably some of the only people awake in a five mile radius. Scratch that, they’re probably the only people in a five mile radius.

John sits to Nik’s left, in the seat he’s so used to Nikolai occupying. His hands are encased by Nikolai’s as the other man gently coaches him through the steps.

“Da, collective. No, no, just a little, so we are not all on the ground.” Nikolai moves John’s hands away, placing one gently onto the cyclic. “Now make sure we are straight. Da! And then lift us off.”

He can’t help the grin on his face when John makes it off of the ground.

“Da! Now, cyclic, bring us forwards. Raise collective too, so we do not go down.”

Nikolai, perhaps in earnest of himself, takes his hands away entirely as John brings them to a decent flight speed.

His face is set in concentration, brow furrowed, and he’s lacking the relaxed demeanour he finds so often in Nikolai when they’re flying. But it’s a little freeing.