Retake till you delete it ll Video to Allison
Dustin moved around his dorm room impatiently. He was doing everything to just try to concentrate on anything or more so not think of one thing. Thing as in a person a person as in one Allison Smith. He was going to go crazy and the boy had no idea why that was. With the thousandth hair ruffling this afternoon he fell back on his bed with a huff. He sat and thought about how he could get this stupid repetition of strange thoughts out. He had tried video games and he did his homework and he texted some guys back in Florida but nothing had seemed to do the trick. He clicked on his tweeter app trying to find interest in that when he passed his sisters post, @AliceParker: The best way to let it go is to let it out. Say it out loud. Dustin's eyebrow lifted slightly at how perfect it seemed that she would type out something like that. He knew there was a reason he loved her, he thought as his lips formed a perfect smirk. He could just talk it out of him. It's not like any of the things he thought were bad. He could just tell the girl straight up and than bam problem solved. Was he stupid for not noticing earlier? Maybe, he told himself shrugging his shoulder not really caring. He knew he was smart after all he was just kidding himself. Smart enough that he knew he was good at making a fool out of himself from time to time. He knew his strengths and straight on serious speeches weren't them. Allison was out at a shoot so it's not like he could do it right away anyway. The boy decided to close out the app and opened his camera up flipping it over to the video setting and setting it to see his face as opposed to the dorm room beyond him. Clicking the play button he started to record.
"Allison." he said looking into his camera nodding his head up and down. This was awkward for him. Actually if awkward was a color it would probably be the only one you would see in the whole room... or maybe not. Maybe if emotions were colors there would be an interest mix in the room. "Ever felt like you wanted to tell something something but just wasn’t sure how? Or if it was even okay…?" he asked shrugging his shoulders. God he sounded like some type of horribly made add on TV for a new kitchen nick nack that no one actually needed. "Because for the longest time I would say I saw you like my sister. I’m just… Like what if I don’t? Not anymore?" he asked the camera pretending he was speaking to the girl before catching his words. "I mean, shit, what did I mean. I guess uhh you’re strong. I mean my sisters strong she’s not not strong. Fuck, okay, take 2." he said shaking his head bringing his hand up to ruffle his blond hair. He clicked to record button twice, once to finish that horrible rendition and a second time to record a new one.
"Allison." he started off with again licking his lips nonchalantly before continuing. "I wanted to tell you something. You know, which is the point of this. But now I feel like and idiot because hell what was I thinking… What did I even want to say" it didn't make sense in his head how could something bother him so profusely for such a long period of time without him being able to pin point it? He had stayed there not saying anything for a couple seconds making the pause just too strange he was going to rerecord it again and start over once more but he thought he would only try to explain the 'talk' again but maybe he just needed to blurt it out.
"Allison, you’re… You deserve anything you could ever want you know?" He asked sincerely. "But I don’t actually think you do and funnily enough I think that’s part of the reason you deserve it. As weirdly inspection like as that sounds..." He said making a face at how he had just worded that. "You’re funny in a witty way. You’re smart. You challenge me all the time which I have to say thanks for because I’m a freakin jerkish hot head at times. And at the same time as you call me out on my shit I’m still completely myself around you because I feel like I can. Life’s really fucked you over so far I get that but it’s not because you earned it. Life is just fuckin’ unfair. And it’s just so fuckin’ not because you’re pure and good and your smile is freakin’ happiness and I swear I wanna punch every guy who looks you down because hell I get it but they could be fuckin’ respectful about it. And I kind of wish we could just hide out in that spot of yours because it feels right." he finished up watching it to himself once realizing he probably shouldn't say those things. 'yeah, so never letting Allison see that' he thought deleting the video.
