This is inspired by the amazing deadfiction's piece you can find here
I love two sad girls. Two girls I've never met or touched or hugged. I've never talked to them face to face, yet, I feel like I truly know these two girls. It's easier to open up over a text or a phone call I guess. One of these girls I fell in love with and she became my muse. Things didn't work out but we're still great friends and are there for each other in every way.
Loving sad girls may be hard, sometimes it is hard. Their pain becomes yours, rubs off and hits you too. Their thoughts creep in the back of your mind. Their mood swings tend to catch you off guard. Every time the girl you love and care for takes a blade and slides it across her skin, takes a piece of metal and heats it up before putting it against her skin until it boils, it stabs you through the heart. Every time the girl gets drunk to forget and become numb and you see her in this false sense of happiness, it tears away at you. It hurts every single time they talk bad about themselves, talk about being unlovable, talk about things like suicide and depression. It hurts to see the person you love going through that.
You see, it doesn't matter, not to me. Once you made a commitment you stick to it. These two girls didn't invite me in their lives, and to be honest pushed me away because they were afraid I'd get hurt. They were afraid I'll leave once I saw their 'true' side, but it doesn't matter to me. These two girls have been hurt by people over and over again, by love, by life. They've both been hurt so much they have every right to give up on love and trust in people, but they don't. When they both tell me they love me, that they care and I'm their friend, someone they trust completely, that's when you realize what it means. All the hurt disappears and all the bad moments fade. The only thing that matters is the fact you both care, you both love the best way you can. And they do; I do. I'd take a bullet for these two girls.
Yes I agree. It's harder to love sad girls, girls that call themselves 'broken'. Girls that won't let you come close at first. Girls that will make you dig deeper and deeper and will take time to put their guard down until they can trust you. Loving sad girls is painful and sometimes tiring, but in the end it's completely worth it. Loving people who don't love themselves is very tough, some say impossible, in my experience I disagree. After a while you understand these girls may be hard to love and fall for, but they need it the most. After a while you understand it's simply worth it, but that's just my opinion and my experience.
