#dealingwithfeelings

[m-oon-cake]

My therapist told me something important today: closure hurts.

- A Story on Seperation Anxiety

[semimobile]

Tired.

I’m very tired friends. Tired of holding everything in. Tired of keeping up appearances. I know neither is necessary. If you knew me, you’d know I have a loving set of parents who would bend over backwards for me and my illness. But it’s exactly that fact I’m so tired of. I’m tired of the constant knowledge that I can never truly be trusted by myself to be alone in public areas. The self awareness that someone always needs to help me stand or grab items for me makes me feel like a child. Unfit of adult world issues I so desperately crave. The debilitating feeling of attempting to online date only to have to figure into each match, would they be alright with not being as athletic, with having to take breaks at standing room only functions, to being limited in adventures we can take simply because I no longer have the stamina? I know people could learn to love me, but how does one get past the way I can feel eyes on me when I walk with a slight limp, or can’t extend my wrist exactly as far as they know an able bodied person can. I am not built for the feeling of pity the public develops when they learn of your physical handicap. More days than I can count, I am fine and I have learned to love myself and handle my issues with grace. I started this blog so I can dissect and handle the days when I cannot. This is my own personal diary to keep track of my feelings, since I cannot keep them in check myself. I am at the end of my 5th year since being diagnosed with Rhuematoid Arthritis. There is not a joint in my body not affected, so my 24 year old life has been slowed to the crawl of a lively 70ish year old person. Honestly I do feel the weight leaving, the one that goes after you’ve expressed a big worry. It feels dumb of me to complain about relationships, but at this point in my life and with the people around me living theirs, it’s hard not to wish this piece of my life could also at least have started. I hope with this blog, I can open new doors for myself by way of friendships and knowledge. How to pick my self up on down days and how to celebrate the good. I am also rarely this formal, I only like the formalities when writing. I can’t promise myself I will update often, but I always have this app open on my second blog which will remain secret, so if anyone out there feels like contacting me please do.

[dailycyberhelp]

Getting rid of unwanted feelings

so i know all that some of the things we say/post on here is so much easier said than done and especially if its something with talking to people about how you feel or your problems so this is why i’ll be listing some ways you calm yourself down or just make yourself feel better or getting rid of unwanted thoughts (i already made a post about this but i remembered some more ways)

there is this website called “the quiet place project” which has helped me a lot! it’s basically a website to help you get through though times whether is because you’re sad or stressed or just need some time for yourself.  when you get to the website there is options to how you feel. I’m gonna listen them now and tell you what they’re all about so when you need it you know what to go to.

the quiet place is the place where you can get a real break and just breath and get away from all your social media so when you’re stressed out please go to the quiet place

the 90 seconds exercise is the place you need to go if all your social media is stressing you out its such a good exercise and it really help so please just do the 90 seconds exercise from time to time

the thoughts room is the place to get rid of all your feelings. you can choose your language in this one so you’re sure that you understand everything because this is honestly on of the best things about the quiet place and it really does help

the dawn room is the place to go if you’re feeling worthless and just need someone to care at first it might not seem like the place to be but i promise you it’ll help and it’ll make you feel better and wanted. just to give an example the dawn room always makes me cry because its so amazing.

there is this last kinda hidden one, you need to be in one of the places to go to there is a thing that says click below to see more from this project and when you scroll down there is this thing called know that it’ll be okay and that is the place to go if you’re feeling like you don’t wanna be here anymore or harm yourself, i feel like it’s a really comforting place to be and it never fails to make me feel better i don’t wanna give it away so all I’m gonna say is it’s really comforting and it makes you reconsider whatever you were thinking about doing 

NOTE: please put your phone on plane mode or silence whatever when you go to the quiet place or else it’ll be kinda pointless :) here is a link: http://thequietplaceproject.com -Em

[emiiisixxmoore]

Journal/Scrapbook

FML i Wrote in my journal like i do everyday but today was Different because i started Scrapbooking it was fun. & depressing <3