I DID A GUT CHECK THIS MORNING HOPING THAT I HAD GOTTEN BETTER, HOPING THAT LITTLE CRACK IN MY HEART OVER THAT BEAUTIFUL QUEER NERD-GIRL WHO MIRRORED ME IN UNCOUNTABLE WAYS HAD SEWN ITSELF BACK TOGETHER.
IT HADN’T.
I DON’T THINK IT EVER WILL.
THAT’S WHEN I REALIZED THAT I CAN NEVER--WILL NEVER--FORGIVE THEM FOR WHAT THEY DID TO CHARLIE.
FOR WHAT THEY DID TO US.















