#dear dean

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Dear Nat

I did it again. I did another full immersion with one of your masterpieces. Yes, masterpieces, because that's what they are, and that's the only way I know to call your stories.

I spent my Sunday (and yeah, part of Monday) reading Lieutenant Dean 'dreamboat' Winchester & Bambi story, and I cried, and I laughed, and chapter by chapter I fell in love with them more and more. I would've liked to comment on each chapter individually, but I didn't want to bother you by unleashing a notifications storm your way.

So I'm here now to say THANK YOU. Thank you for all the time, and effort, and hard work you put into creating all these incredible worlds, worlds we can escape into whenever we need to take a break from real life messes, worlds in which we all can find ourselves lost in for hours, savoring every moment of it.

You're simply amazing, and my wish is for you to feel better soon, angel 💖

God, Emmy!

Just so you know… You could never bother me with too many notifications!

Thank you so much for taking your time to read it. Seeing your name popping up when you read it made me smile incredibly heart. Dear Dean is so close to my heart and I’m so happy that I can make other people feel the emotions I put in.

You’re a star. I appreciate you so much, babe ❤️❤️

Dear Dean

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I finished "dear dean" and I fucking love it, I loved the characters and their relationship it was so beautifully written. It brings me so many emotions... You made me laugh and cry... cry so much and the end was just 😭😭😭😭😭I'm speechless . Everything was perfect, it's a masterpiece 😍😍😍

And now I'm going to cry again...

Wow... I don’t really know what to say. Please don’t cry too much?

Welp, now I’m crying too

Thank you so much for reading and sending me this. It makes me happy people still find a way to that series ❤️

Dear Dean

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I don’t know who else is looking forward to this more than @dean-winchesters-bacon​, but here you go. I’m on it.

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@anon Thank you so much for this! I legit cried. 

I couldn’t post your ask because I had to black out some major spoilers first so I’m going to post it like this. 

First of all, thank you for taking your time to read Dear Dean. It means so much to me that people still find a way to that series that’s dear to my heart. I think of Dean and Jamie more than I care to admit and I’m sure that I’ll get back to them at some point. 

Secondly, Band of Brothers (I also loved Rich as ‘Skip’ Muck!) and Saving Private Ryan are my main source for this story (Saving Private Ryan mostly for the Omaha Beach scenes). I have spent weeks if not months watching documentaries and researched. So, I’m super excited that people really like it. I’m a WWII nerd so it warms my heart even more if I can take others, who might not be familiar with it, on a journey with me. Fun fact, at first, I didn’t know if I wanted to write about Normandy or the Battle of the Bulge.

If it helps? I cried while I wrote some passages. Like sometimes I cried when I was writing the letters. And I cried the most when Dean arrived back in America. It might sound a little weird but it fills me with joy to know that I could make others cry as much as I did. 

Please, please don’t ever think you can not comment because you lack knowledge in the English language. Tell you what, English is not my first language either, so I completely get where you’re coming from. Don’t ever think that your comments are worth less because you can’t express yourself. And please, hit me with all of the “I loved it!”. Because honestly, more often than not, that’s enough and it keeps me going.

Again, thank you for sending me this lovely ask. I appreciate you SO MUCH!

Dear Dean

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I want to share a comment with you that I just received on AO3 to a sequel of Dear Dean which I didn’t quite finish because to me, it didn’t seem like a lot of people wanted to read a sequel. I have been asked multiple times in the last months if I would want to continue but I still can’t make up my mind. So, long story short, this comment made my day and it kind of fuels my inner muse. Maybe one day I get to finish it after all.

The moral is, that comments are important to us. They give us fuel to keep on going. Please always leave a little something if you like a fic ❤️

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Jamie, what is something Dean does as a dad that you never expected? 😘

I honestly didn’t expect much from Dean. I knew how caring he his and from the moment he held Hope in his arms - even if he was stiff like a board - I knew immediately that he wouldn’t let her fall. I knew that he would do everything to protect his little girl. I don’t know how I knew, I just do. 

But to come back to your question. I never knew that I had to fight for the girl's attention. When Hope so much as coughs in the middle of the night, Dean would be up before I can even blink my eyes open. And honestly, he always said that he can’t sing but he can. He sings Hope to sleep. Every night. Don’t tell him that because he’d get all flustered and shy if he’d find out (which is totally cute, by the way, so maybe you should tell him that), but I’d stand on the landing and listen. It calms me too. 

Another thing I honestly never excepted from him is that he’s so patient with her. While we were in the Normandy I knew him as the grumpy, hot-headed guy who would get angry at every little thing but with Hope, he has all the patience in the world.

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So, uh... @fancat-not-fangirl​ I wanted to post this ask but it has some spoilers so I blacked it out and am doing it this way. 

Thank you so much! And I’m sorry I made you cry (Well, not really sorry, because that was secretly what I was hoping, since I cried ugly tears myself when I wrote it lol). Thank again for taking your time to send me this lovely ask! I am so glad I you took a chance with my fic! 

Dear Dean

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Dear Dean Dean, how’re Jamie and the baby and Jameson? Updates on everyone please!

Jamie’s huge (I’m sorry, but I’m just stating the facts here). She can barely fit through the door and the bed dips to one side, even with the new mattress we’ve bought. She’s ready to pop and I can tell by the grumpiness that she’s so sick of it. I try to be supportive, but lately, everything I do is not right. I talk too loud, I laugh too loud, I chew too loud, everything’s too loud. Jameson told me that it’s perfectly normal, since he was the one who spent time with her during the first pregnancy (I’m still pretty much bummed that I wasn’t here). But we have our good times too, don’t get me wrong. Not everything annoys here. She likes it when I rub her tummy, likes it when I help ease the aches in her bones and I can not say that I don’t enjoy it either.

Jameson’s doing great btw, he’s got a girl and is taking care of Hope when I have to go to work. He told me that he wants to move out one day and I think Bambi’s okay with that but honestly, I like him here. I like having a full house and always having someone to come home to so I don’t think I’ll let Jameson go, he doesn’t know it yet, though. 

Hope’s growing to be a super cute little girl. She hates when I help her get dressed. She hates it when we help her do things in general. I wonder where she got her strong mind from. I think it’s from me (don’t tell Bambi that).

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