#dear jacv

[thewierdbookworm]

The feeling when all you wanna do is run and run and run until your lungs ache and your legs give out….

And hopefully by then you’ll be far enough away

[thewierdbookworm]

The personal growth here is wild. Rather than be hurt cause he was kissing someone else I got the ick… that’s wild to me

[thewierdbookworm]

Doing my best trying not to give a shit about him, not see him with rose colored glasses….

Another year, same shit…. He’s all over me the first day, and then he turns cold and the whiplash is real

Im tired, I wished I didn’t care. And then S is hitting on him and it bugs me even more

Maybe this will be the year I actually learn…

[thewierdbookworm]

Es su cumple, and I want to wish him a happy birthday, pero al mismo tiempo no. Ya no, para cerrar bien ese capítulo, creo que este año ya no.

[thewierdbookworm]

I don’t know if it’s because around this time last year I was texting him constantly, but I miss him. I won’t text him, no matter how much I want to…. I’m allowed to miss him…

[thewierdbookworm]

I hate that I miss him, but it doesn’t change the fact that he didn’t care enough…

that it’s gonna be part of healing…letting go…

[thewierdbookworm]

And on the days he’s playful…

All I want to do is spend time with him…

He held my purse like it was nothing, told me to walk straight…

When he acts like this it’s easy to tell why I like him so much

4 days left, hopefully I get to see him again before I leave….

[thewierdbookworm]

Did I wish I saw him today that I was finally alone… Yes…

Did I still have fun with all my friends even if I didn’t see him…

Yes…

Is part of healing missing him…

Also yes…

I know it’s gonna take time, but I’m ready