Mun Shuu: ✈
( @deceivermun . )
✈ — an eye-opening memory
One of the most eye-opening memories for Kou would be the first time she does have sex for benefits and not for pleasure. Her first time isn’t out of love, no, it was in the brothel where she was trained. It was her first job. To collect a particularly vital piece of information. There was no love there, simply a need to get the job done. To not fail, lest she loses her place to be again. As she lied down on the futon, staring emptily at the ceiling, body reacting naturally, her voice drawn from her by some thief, some monster masquerading as her lover for the night — stealing her innocence with every disgusting breath against her ringing ear; every thrust that brought no pleasure. None at all.
But she wraps her legs around the man’s waist and lets her body react, her mind elsewhere. A disconnect. Her mind working, always working — and in the silence of the night when he was spent, his lust sated and her body desecrated, he whispers what she had been working for the whole night with her inviting body, supple and no longer pure, and her engaging conversations. Now, in the aftermath of becoming nothing, she realizes as he basks in the aftermath, self-indulgement, and arrogance… this was a weapon she can utilize.
As a woman, being desired was natural. She might as well make use of it. This first mission allowed her to accept sex as sex - one of her edges, her swords. So she uses it wisely. Undoubtedly, unabashedly, it is one of the methods of how she climbed to the top of the ranks, coupled with her skill and cunning.
She remembers her first mission like it was yesterday. And though she does not regret what she has done to get where she is, she hates it. As such, she rarely lets anyone touch her now that she’s an executive. She allows her girls and her boys to do that for her, as bad as it sounds. Yet, she never forces anyone to do it per se.
But for those under her care who do what she had to, she often tells them to let the body react and detach themselves.
Keep the goal in mind and use their desecration as springboard to greater heights, beyond what has been done and set upon them.
They are, naturally, compensated quite handsomely.
