#declan doyle

[starry-bite]

i. declan doyle's cover identity was. matthew thatcher. matthew. matthew.

emily really named her first kid after him. i'm.

[prentisswh0re]

oh no! the what ifs are coming back to haunt me!

[doctoralhashimi]

no full fledged thoughts here, just thinking about emily staying in declan's life as he grows up and watching as he beats the odds in every way—yet also how he ages into a young man who looks more and more like his father, in ways that make her breath catch from time to time. phenotypic things like the blue of his eyes, yes, but the lazy little slant of his smile, too, or the inexplicable sadness in the way he carries himself, long limbs that linger. declan doyle as the great triumph in the story of emily's life, but also a touchstone. declan doyle as the ultimate example of her love, a love that doesn't flinch or look away or try not to remember. a love that leans in, nonetheless and because.

[pagetbrewsterfansite]

When Ian Doyle Told Emily That It Wouldn't Be The First Time She Killed An Innocent, But It Would Be The First Time She Had To Watch, That IS NOT An Indication THAT Emily Has Killed An Innocent Person Before!

That was when he thought someone had killed Declan to hurt him, to break him.

What Ian Didn't Know Was, That was Emily's Hand Holding the Gun Pointed at Declan & That She Faked Killing Him to Keep Declan Safe from Ian & The People Who WOULD Have Killed Him to Break Ian.

Yeah! Em did something "shady", but it was to protect an Innocent, NOT Kill Them.

[justagirl-purplejellosg1]

So, I've seen some amazing posts about Emily and Matthew recently, and that's a dynamic I love. And then I got to thinking about it at 2am this morning, and broke my own heart.

Because Declan's cover name was Matthew Thatcher.

And now I'm thinking about Emily choosing that name for the boy she could save in honour of the boy she couldn't.

Something that becomes more painful after the Matthew she named him after dies.

[ohlittlebluebell]

Chapters: 1/1 Fandom: Criminal Minds (US TV) Rating: Teen And Up Audiences Warnings: No Archive Warnings Apply Relationships: Declan Doyle & Emily Prentiss, Jennifer "JJ" Jareau & Emily Prentiss, Declan Doyle & Henry LaMontagne Characters: Emily Prentiss, Declan Doyle, Jennifer "JJ" Jareau, Henry LaMontagne Additional Tags: Fluff and Angst, POV Emily Prentiss, Trauma, Momily, Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence, Post-JTF-12, Ian Doyle is dead, a glimpse into emily building a life with/for declan Summary:

Playgrounds on weekends is… a situation they’re still adjusting to.

Emily looks down at where Declan sits plastered to her side, watching kids run around and play without a care, his blue eyes wide and unblinking.

------------------------------- Or: Declan makes a friend.

[wereoz]

i think declan touching doyle’s hand and saying ‘i remember you…’ and doyle responding ‘i’m sorry’ was the perfect way to end the emily & doyle & declan arc. it’s the perfect way to show that in a horrible, dysfunctional way they were a family (forced to be!!) and even though emily and doyle wanted each other dead and declan lives without both of them, a little bit of each other will live in all of them forever. honestly including this in the same ep where it’s revealed declan was born through doyle keeping his mother captive to force her to give birth, and emily’s disgust at that really makes this arc more powerful and tragic. like - she had to live with that man and make loving him believable. she had to believe 100% she was in love for him for this to work, not to mention she was further trapped by actually caring for declan and wanting to know he was okay. it’s a painful, confusing situation with no good outcome. if it’s not believable, you die and compromise the operation. if you believe it, you compromise your morality and identity and when everything ends you feel as though you’ve destroyed your home, your family. emily was left feeling so empty. god <//3

[valhallafemme]

𝑻𝒉𝒆 𝑾𝒂𝒕𝒄𝒉𝒆𝒓 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝑴𝒊𝒓𝒓𝒐𝒓

*Tuscany, 2004*

How many nights have I watched her, this doppelganger I've become? Watched as she surrenders to his touch, to the fire that consumes her whenever his skin meets hers? Watched as she loses herself in the altar of his flesh, forgetting for a moment the weight of her lies, the burden of her deception? Too many to count now.

The villa holds our secrets like a confessional. Its stone walls have witnessed every transformation - from Emily to Lauren, from target to lover, from spy to mother. Earlier today, those same hands that worship her body so reverently were teaching Declan about weapons, about survival. The same lips that trace fire across her skin had been singing our boy to sleep with Irish lullabies. The duality should shatter the spell, but somehow it only deepens it.

Sometimes Declan's footsteps in the hall bring us back to reality - the soft pad of small feet seeking comfort from nightmares. In those moments, we transform instantly from lovers to parents, and the seamlessness of this transition terrifies me more than any passion. The way Ian's eyes hold the same intensity whether he's claiming her body or protecting his son.

The true madness isn't just in their physical communion - it's in the morning after, when Declan crawls into our bed with nightmares, when we build blanket fortresses and sing about cats that always come back, when we become the family that neither Ian nor I ever thought we'd have. That's the real fever that consumes us both - Lauren and me, until we can't tell where one ends and the other begins.

My mind reels with images of them - the sweat-slicked dance of their bodies, the primal relentlessness of his thrusts, the rapture glazed over her face as she shatters around him again and again... I've become a voyeur to their passion, a silent witness to the erotic poem they write in purple and gunpowder.

Oh, I've felt her ecstasy as affirmation, her climax a benediction to their sinful communion. Heard her cries of rapture echo through the halls of this fortress, a siren song that stirred the very air, and stirred in me a loyterian envy for the frenzy she knew in his arms. The way her skin bloomed freesias under his ardent touch, as if the very blood beneath hurried to meet his caress.

In those moments, I am not the agent, the spy, the keeper of secrets. God help me, I am her. A woman undone, unmade, reborn again and again in the conflagration of their love. Taken, claimed, possessed. Owned.

I've watched them climb the heights of Eros, their coupling a symphony of damp, wanton flesh and guttural, husky whispers. The air heavy with the coital musk of their mating, the obscene slap of flesh against flesh ringing in my ears. I've been the silent audience to their erotic theater, to the candy-colored spills of his seed splattering her skin as if marking her, branding her his.

He was a virtuoso of vice, master of every tender sinew, each sensitive nerve ending that led to her unraveling. His every touch, every kiss, every whisper was a sculpture chip, hewing her to the shape of his desire. He made a temple of her flesh, an altar to his worship. And she stood rapt before him, eyes blazing with a fever of devotion as he plundered her, conquered her, possessed her so completely.

I should not have watched so hungrily, felt the prick of envy at her flesh-bound rapture, the twist of longing for the onslaught of his passion upon my own skin. But I did. Damn me, I did. I played the spymistress, the unspoken third in their erotic bloodshed, the silent witness to their licks and kisses, their bites and caresses.

And I burned with it, ached with it, yearned with it - for their love, their need, their all-encompassing, soul-crushing obsession with the flesh of the other.

It was a fever, a madness, an unholy euphoria that consumed them both, that ate them alive and left them reborn in a welter of sweat and satiated flesh. And I was the silent priest, the unseen celebrant to that communion, that carnal sacrament of lust and desire.

I have a confession to make. I did not mind it, I did not mind it at all... I minded it too well. For in watching their love, their passion, I was reminded of the truth I had long denied. That beneath this mask, beneath this persona, beneath the steel-edged woman I had forged myself into, I too was a creature of flesh and blood and bone.

I too craved to be touched, to be tasted, to be devoured. I too yearned to be held, to be conquered, to be possessed by a love as fierce and unyielding as Ian Doyle's lust. I too hungered to surrender to the flame, to be consumed in its fiery crucible and reforged into something wilder, something freer, something more... alive.

But that was a hunger I could not afford to satisfy. Not now. Not ever. For I was here to fulfill a purpose, to complete a mission, to raze this empire of violence and death to the ground. And to do that, I had to become the one thing that could tempt Ian Doyle to let down his guard, to place his trust in the tender hand of treachery. I had to become the woman in the moonlit window, the mother to his son, the lover who would one day become his Judas.

I am Emily Prentiss, and I cannot afford a heart. Not now. Not ever... But damn me, I do not mind it. I do not mind it at all... Even knowing the destruction to come. Even knowing how completely this love will shatter us all. Even knowing that every moment of passion, every family breakfast, every bedtime story brings us closer to the inevitable end.

Because some fires are worth the burning.

Some love is worth the destruction.

Some families are real even when built on lies.

The night air carries freesias from the garden where Declan plays, where I teach him goofy French words against his father's wishes, where we pretend at normal despite the weapons hidden in lilac bushes and the guards at every gate. In our bed, Ian stirs, reaching for me in sleep. Tomorrow I'll send another report to my handlers. Tomorrow I'll add another betrayal to my growing list. Tomorrow I'll remember my purpose.

But tonight, I watch Lauren love him.

Tonight, I let myself burn.

Tonight, I forget who's real and who's pretend.

Until the end comes.

Until truth claims its due.

Until duty destroys everything Lauren has built.

But not yet.

Not tonight.

Tonight, we burn.

Yours,

Until time comes for us.

Her.

𝑻𝒖𝒔𝒄𝒂𝒏𝒚'𝒔 𝑩𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑬𝒎𝒃𝒆𝒓𝒔

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