whts your relationshp with those two you always post about and reblog from? seems lik they mean alot to you. you dont have to answer, jw. luv your art btw
Long, mushy explanation below:(Thank you for the ask and compliment!)
Well, they do mean a lot to me, probably more than both of them will ever know. Our dynamic is interesting. They are roughly three years older than me, yet they refer to me as their child. And I guess there’s a story behind that, but we’re not gonna go into that.
I met @getinmahbe11ay through work. We both roughly started around the same time, but she was there a little bit before I was. I think when our relationship really kicked off was when I had to dress up as the Easter Bunny for Easter. And Ollie was kinda acting like my body guard I guess lol. She would help me walk around the store (it was hard as fuck to see), and would talk to people for me because I wasn’t allowed to talk. We basically spent half the day doing that and since then, whenever we worked together, we’d always mess around and talk.
@dee-motivation and I met through Ollie at the same work. De didn’t really care for me lol. I was pretty emotional at times and I snapped at her once at work (she never forgot and I still feel guilty lmao) because I was overreacting over something. So, I honestly can’t really remember what made her want to continue being friends with me. Maybe it was because Ols and I were close, but she’s not really the type to stay friends with someone because of someone else. If she doesn’t like you, she’s not gonna pretend she does. So I dunno about that.
We’ve been friends for a little longer than two years now, and I really wish I could accurately describe what they mean to me. I think of them as family, but it’s more than that, at least to me. I was reading something in reference to soulmates, and it talks about how they aren’t just limited to your significant other. It was saying how there are certain people in your life who you just connect with more than anyone else and know it isn’t a typical thing, because you have intense feelings for them and would do anything for them. All I ever want is to make them happy. And there are times where I get low and feel like I don’t do enough. But I try.
Ollie and De are always there for me, despite everything I’ve done, have gone through, and am currently going through. They take care of me, even when I don’t want to take care of myself and are constantly supportive of me no matter what. They don’t leave me alone when I have depressive incidents or panic attacks (unless I want to be left alone), even if they occur often. And I always feel extremely guilty that they have to deal with me like that, because I can become very closed in and difficult to talk to. Despite that, they try. They try to get me to talk, try to stay close to me, and try to snap me back to reality with different methods. They take the time, even if they are busy, to listen to me, talk to me, and be there for me whenever I need it.
There is nothing I can ever do to repay them for everything they have done for me and continue to do for me now. I want to give them anything and everything, which often leads to me doing stupid stuff and getting yelled at by them later lol. I trust them with everything I have, and would do anything they asked of me whenever and wherever. They are extremely important to me, and I love them and always will. They are special people, and deserve everything good in the world and I hope that they both achieve everything they’ve ever wanted. I want to be apart of our family fiveever, they mean everything to me.
De, Ollie:
I love you both so much and there’s never anything I will ever be able to do or say that will express how deep it goes (nothing will ever be enough). Thank you for always being there for me and for always taking care of me. I’m proud and so fucking thankful to have you both as friends, adoptive parents, and, to me, soulmates.
