#deep personal asks

[slaughterchichi]

uncomfortable Ask gameeee :3

2 and 16

2. what is your preferred method of non-physical self destruction?

Non-physical self-destruction, huh? It's hard to choose one that is "preferred" because I don't really have a choice in it, but I'm... what's the term, neurodivergent? My brain does whatever it wants and I'm not exactly in control of it, so it goes on anxiety tangents and such that are pretty damaging. I don't really have to "seek" ways for self destruction because of it, y'know?

One thing that I get told off for is being way too personal and sharing way too much information at the drop of a hat. I'll tell pretty much anyone pretty much anything, often oversharing things that can come back to bite me in the ass :/ I guess this is more voluntary than the other stuff so this might fit better as an answer.

16. what is a skill or talent you’ve completely lost or overlooked? why did that happen?

[insert obscene sex things here]. The reason these have been overlooked or "lost" is because I'm grey-ace and only want that sort of stuff if I have a partner that I love. Currently I don't have one so I don't need them right now lmao.

Otherwise I guess it's the ability to read things that I didn't write. I used to devour books when I was younger but along the way somewhere I started struggling to retain the information. I'll get a few paragraphs in and have forgotten everything, which makes this way harder than it used to be. Worse still, because of that I stopped trying, and I guess that really doesn't help.

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[slaughterchichi]

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14, 15

14. do you enjoy being lightheartedly teased? why or why not?

I feel like you asked this one knowing the answer and that's cheating~~

Of course, because you asked I have to answer publicly so: yes, I do enjoy being lightheartedly teased. It's a nice comfortable spot for me. It depends on the thing being teased about to an extent and if I like the person doing so though. Some people try to tease me and it just makes me so fuckin' angry. Like... you gotta earn the right to do that? Idk. Generally I'm down with it and prefer it in my friendships~

15. do you prefer to be numb or overly emotional? why?

Hmmm... It depends entirely on the emotion. I'm often a bit much for people because I'm so honest and open with things, but when shit really hits the fan I prefer to be numb than to wallow in it. That or have a different emotion take over (like losing myself in something else to forget). I've been through a lot so many things don't faze me but the ones that do are... a pain.

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[slaughterchichi]

1 & 3 💛

Thank you darling~

what’s the best advice you’ve ever been given?

Hmmm, typically I’m the person giving advice rather than taking it, but two instances come to mind:

Don’t feel guilty about accepting help you need AND Do what makes you happy. Not said in these exact words of course but damn, genuinely life-changing stuff here. The sooner I stopped caring how people percieved me for either of these things, the better everything felt. I still have trouble asking for help on stuff but surprisingly people actually want things to be good for me so I should do it more often haha.

what’s your favourite way to self care?

It sorta depends on how I’m feeling. Sometimes you just wanna buy something and other times you have to put the effort in to make yourself feel better. Self care isn’t always pretty stuff like face masks and whatever, sometimes it’s forcing yourself to do things you’ve been putting off. When you dread things, they still lurk at the back of your head and the longer you leave it the worse it gets.

And then, sometimes, you just wanna write some incredibly self-indulgent shit or reread over something that brought you joy. All of these things are valid lol

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[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

10 & 18, my friend!

hi love!!!!

10. tell me about an insecurity you overcame. I used to be really shy and it was hard for me to talk to strangers. Now I talk to anyone who will talk back for the most part. This was a conceit of my theatre education because without being outgoing, you simply can't get on in rooms very well or network very well. I still feel very introverted, but I'm glad I found this extroverted persona (or maybe it's just the darn truth and I haven't accepted it yet.

18. what is something you can’t bring yourself to get rid of? Truly anything my mom buys for me. I'm an only child and my mom compensated with me leaving for college by just buying me things ALL THE TIME. I know that sounds like the best and it really is, it's so thoughtful. But because everything feels so thoughtful, I feel like I can't get rid of it without it being a piece of my mom!!!

[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

5 and 15 for the deep/personal asks ❤️

OKAY I'M BACK, thanks for the patience, love

I answered 15 here, but 5

5. if anything, what would you change about your childhood? OH MAN. Um...I had a pretty happy childhood. I sometimes wish my mom didn't let me quit things like dance and playing the flute, but I also appreciated the fact I could explore and found so many other things. Also, I think I realized as an adult that I punished myself for having negative emotions all the time because everything was "fixed" in my house. Lots of sympathy, love, and support while I was growing up, but not a lot of empathy and just letting people sit in the shit.

[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

hey! 11 and 15 please 🌸

hi hun! ✨

11. tell me about your last failed friendship. OW. Okay. When I was in my senior year of college in 2017, I had gone through a traumatic experience the summer before. I alienated some really important relationships to me at the time, including my best friend and roommate which culminated in an argument where she told me I needed to go to therapy. This was definitely true, but also the way she said it was not entirely from a place of love. Fast forward to the summer after we graduated and our communications disappeared almost completely. I ran into her about two years later and she wouldn't even look at me. It sounds sad and dramatic and it was. I actually still have nightmares to this day about confronting her about why it had to all shake out like that. But it also taught me that like...some relationships are meant for specific times in your life. Her friendship taught me so much and also was incredibly rife. I'll always have love for her, but she was meant for that time specifically in my life.

what a mouthful...

15. do you prefer to be numb or overly emotional? why? I went on a date last night and ended up crying in the middle of it talking about my mom, so if that tells you anything...

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[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

4, 9 and 20 <3

hi babes sorry for the delay 💕

4. tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad. I have a vivid memory of standing in my crib as a like 2/3 year old and demanding my mom turn off the light and her being like, "It'll be really dark and scary." And then me telling her to turn it off anyway and then, when she did, screaming my head off.

9. do you cry? why or why not? Yes, yes, yes. Everyone cry, please, I'm begging you.

20. tell me what you think others think about you. Unhinged but fun. Weird but self-assured. Definitely the kind of person where people often get a negative first impression just from looking at me and expect me to be kind of a basic white girl? I don't know about that last bit.

[jonesyjonesyjonesy]

1,4,7,8

hey lovely!

1. what’s the best advice you’ve ever been given? Well, well, well. Another piece of advice you say? My favorite. As promised, here's the Uncle Iroh quote that is pretty brilliant to me. "In the darkest times, hope is something you give yourself."

4. tell me about your most vivid memory, good or bad. Hmmm...I remember reading 'Return to Oz' in my childhood bedroom when I was in high school because I was having trouble sleeping so I would read every night in hopes to fall asleep by like 8 o'clock or else I would get so stressed I wouldn't be able to fall asleep.

7. what is your fatal flaw? Thinking everyone else has it together and that somehow I'm not an adult and I missed out on all the adulting things when really we're all just looking at each other thinking "what the fuck do I do now?"

8. what is something that gets to you that you wish wouldn’t? Oh, buckle up kids. I'm gonna say it. I have a hard time staying in my lane. And social media of all kinds makes that hard. At my worst, I'm comparing likes/comments/followers etc pretty much everywhere as if what I'm doing has ANYTHING TO DO WITH what other people are doing (spoilers, it just doesn't). I wish I didn't get bogged down by that, but sometimes I do at my worst and I know I"m not alone in it so it's worth saying (shame dies in the light).