#deepdarkmood

[sirsoulcookie]

I can feel the oxygen freeze my lungs Standing in this lonely space They turned off the power A couple of hours ago I figured I would say goodbye To the place that we once called home I haven't felt whole in so long I forgot the way Your hair frames your face And the distance in your stare I wonder if you'd even care That I've been running on empty for years And I'm starting to think about moving North Where I can hide from the sun I got my savings hidden under the back seat I know I won't get far But I won't be here

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Alone, And That's All

I've never felt so free or alone I thought I could fight this How could I deny Him? I chose a Heavenly Father Over one I barely know I'm pretty sure I only loved Because you told me to And I know I only chose to forgive Because I was scared of you I used to be fearless I thought I would find strength in independence I only found a soul in solitude I left behind a suffocating doubt But the air here stings my lungs And turns to ashes in my mouth If life under God Crushes my weakened soul But disbelief has me scared and alone Where does that leave me?

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Virginia Woolf

The only chance I get to see you now Is when I walk past your house And you’re in town I can catch a glimpse through the window

I’ve been thinking about Virginia Woolf And how her death seemed so God damn beautiful “I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came”

Washed away

I boarded a plane to California in my mind I don’t think I’m paying a round trip fare this time I know I’m a little older now So I got my feet bolted to the ground But my head’s in the clouds And I ain’t lettin’ it come back down

I’ve been thinking about Virginia Woolf And how her death seemed so God damn beautiful “I don’t think two people could have been happier till this terrible disease came”

Washed away

I got off the plane in the Golden State Left my dignity in baggage claim Filled my jacket with rocks and stepped into your car

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Not Much To Say

My memory of you is a seed for change Our experience nurturing my sensibility

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Cease And Desist

i traced the lines on Your wrist a letter to self cease and desist

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Eddie Redmayne looks kind of beautiful. Lol.

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Black Holes

I cover my black hole in blood and guts and flesh But it's bound to consume everything This disguise can only hold for so long Paper skin and lies over glass bones When everything I keep close to my chest Explodes out like a supernova of repressed anger and insecurity I can't promise I won't hurt you I need you to be my gravity But I'm gaining mass Tie me down But it won't last Maybe floating away is best I'll fly into the sky And soar through the night And finally fizzle out No telling where I'll come down Hopefully you'll be around But that's just wishful thinking Sometimes my darkness is so dense Not even your light can escape I hold you to my flames against your will They lick the edges of your strength until You become a black hole like me And we consume everything around us Until we're satisfied and collapse Never to destroy again

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Stars

I stand in your seas in the middle of the night And your calm waves tell me it'll be all right But the dark clouds of my doubt come with the morning It's storming in my heart and where's my shelter I'm only one man but I'm standing Two legs but I'm managing It's damaging the way I stare at the sun and pray for the moon to come that I might see you again My toes are dug deep into the sand I want to pick you up and carry you to the place that's right for us But you slip through my fingers If I could hold you for long enough Maybe there's no place for us here Maybe we should turn our gaze to the stars To find what's ours Instead of driving in cars To some unknown destination That probably doesn't exist This planet is not our home anymore Let's leave the ground like the comets we are And go where we must Leaving a tail of light and dust We don't need time to adjust We'll take it on the run Cause there's no stopping us But for now I'll have to be content With the situation I'm in So I'll make my way back out to sea In the middle of the night when you comfort me with your waves And the reflection of the moon reminds me that we belong to something greater To our home among the stars