Taroooo! Since you shot me an angsty ask, let me do the same :) (btw, I'm crying writing for that ask).
What if one day, maybe while Alicia and Kanoa are passing the time inside the armory, he finds the badge from Operation Firewall? And when he asks Alicia, he notices how her look changed while she puts a hand over her burn scar instictively. Then, Alicia looks at him and finally tells him about that and about what happened to her...even showing him the only picture she kept from the 267.
Ok. So now it's MY turn to do an ANGSTY one shot. Alright then, let's do it!
So, Kanoa had already seen the badge of the Operation Firewall and that got him really curious about it. So once asking his best friend about this badge, he suddenly saw her face expression change. As if she was seeing something happen right there and then. And when Kanoa saw Alicia slowly touching the burnt scar that was on her face. He knows it's something that she wishes not to tell but also knows that she WANTS to.
So he gently reached out for her hand and gently squeezed it. Making Alicia look at him with her eyes that is almost filled with tears. She was trying to hold it back but when she saw her best friend's soft smile. She knew she could trust him to listen to what she had to say.
She took a deep breath before looking away but still held onto her dear friend's hand. "It's...It's one of those missions that I partake in." She slowly explained about it as she tried to hold back her tears and tell everything about what happened to that mission.
Kanoa was not surprised to be honest. Because after listening to her story about losing her team and making them suffer. While she watched them die in front of her eyes. He could tell that it scared her for LIFE. And it devastated her as well. He saw her removing her hand away from his and seeing his poor friend covering her face in shame and guilt.
"I...I kept hearing their screams. Then BEGGING me to do something, to SAVE them but...I have done NOTHING. No matter how hard I try to save them. To save my comrades. To save my team." Then there was a pause from her before she slowly lifted her head up a bit and stared at the wall. "To save those people who I called a FAMILY...they...they just suffered and died right in front of me..."
Kanoa felt his heart being so saddened to see her like this and seeing her tears coming out had really made him feel like crying as well. So he slowly scooted closer to her and gently wrapped both of his arms around her from behind.
Which she flinched as she was surprised to feel his comforting presence around her. "...Noa...will you be...MAD at me if that happened? If I failed to even protect them or your team?"
The Samoan Captain was in silence after hearing that question. He had a feeling that she's asking this because someone ELSE might be blaming Alicia for it. He hugged her close from behind and tightly while laying the side of his face against her back. "To be honest...I WOULD be mad. If it happens to my sister and my team that I trust you will take care."
Alicia had paused for a moment when she heard that answer. She sighs as she looks down to the ground. She wouldn't blame him for being mad at her if that happened to them. And she understands how Kanoa felt about his team, including his sister. She would be mad at herself too which she always does ever since she lost her own. Why would he NOT be mad at her? He trusted her and it's understandable that he would put his hate and blame on her. Just like that certain someone she knew...
"And I have every right to be mad at you. After putting my trust in you to take care of my team." Kanoa continued talking while still hugging her. "BUT...All those things that I MIGHT say to you. There is no reason for me to say it. Yes, of course. I'm upset but the words that came out from my mouth are out of anger NOT my true feelings."
Alicia perked her head up a bit before glancing at Kanoa. She was confused about what he was trying to say.
Kanoa sighs before leaning his head back and just placing his chin on her shoulder. While closing his eyes. "What I'm trying to say is. I'll be angry, yes. But I won't be angry at you FOREVER. Because you are my best friend. And my team cared and trusted you. And I know that THEY know that you have tried. You did your BEST. They know what they've signed up for and they can't blame you." He tilted his head forward to look at Alicia as he gave her a warm smile. "And that's how I believe that your team will say the same thing. They KNOW and they will always know. That their Captain had done her best to protect them. Even through pain and suffering that they have experienced. They know it's not your fault."
Alicia was just stunned by his words as she could feel her heart was aching so much. It made tears show in her eyes as she couldn't hold it back. Kanoa smiled at her before letting her turn around and allowing her to hug him tightly. Which he gladly accepted and hugged her back. Rubbing her back as he let her sobbed against his chest.
The two Captains had stayed like this for a while as Kanoa kept holding her close. Kissing on top of her head to comfort and kept telling her that it's not her fault. NOTHING is her fault.
"K-Kanoa..." Alicia started to sob out his name as she gripped onto the back of his uniform.
"Ssssh...I'm here for you, Alicia. I always will. And no matter what you did. I will ALWAYS forgive you." Kanoa said it softly while rubbing her back. He made sure that she is comfortable and safe.
Alicia sniffled as she lay her head against his chest and slowly glanced up. "Can...Can we stay like this...?"
She could see his smile and a confirmed nod before he pulled her close. "As long as you need, Licia." He could see Alicia closing her eyes as he started to hum a bit of tune to calm her. Before he saw his sister walked in to see this.
"...is she-"
He placed a finger over his lips to give Tiala the hint to not wake their friend up.
Tiala understood as she nodded and slowly walked back. "I'll just tell her team and ours that you two are on break." She said it softly.
Kanoa smiled at her. "Fa'afetai, sis."
Soon his sister left them alone as Kanoa continued to hum while keeping Alicia close.
THE END
This is SO wonderful! I really do love their friendships! Oh my babies!
Kanoa will always make sure that Alicia knows how much he cares for her. And he is telling the truth of how he will react. But no matter how upset he is with her. He will ALWAYS be her Best of Friend! He cared for her as much as he cared for his sister!
Thank you so much for sending this to me, Witch! I really enjoy writing about their friendship and how deeply they care for each other! LOVE YA!
Characters:
Kanoa Toa -> Me
Alicia "Origin" Marchant -> @deeptrashwitch
Tiala "Malie" Toa -> Me










