My feature debut "The Demon's Rook" gets Best Special Effects from the incredibly mind-blowing Fantaspoa Fest in Brazil! And yes, that's a tattoo. All or nothing, baby.
okay so i'm gonna talk about these past couple days
shit is gonna be under the cut k
like srsly i can't breathe through my mouth and i can't find my inhaler and my throat hurts jfc
but these past few days have been like, really fuckin sweet like yay (^O^)
on Wednesday, I went to the premiere for the Demon's Rook and HOOOOOOLY SHIT WAS THAT GREAT!! and Jude, if you're reading this, it's pretty obvi that you were kickass as a zombie and as a groovy goat ahaha. and I got to see Barb again and she's a cutie and I FINALLY MET CODY AND HE'S QUALITY PEOPLE :D
but yeah I told my mom and my Taylor about it and they wanna watch so best believe that when that is out on official dvd-type shit, I'm gonna buy it!
and then yesterday, OH BOY THAT WAS JUST FLKAJBSFJH BEST
I saw my friend Cathy for her birthday, and she was glad I actually visited. and then I saw drag kings and queens perform for the first time ever and it was probably the most beautiful and flawless thing I've ever seen in my entire life >_< FALL OUT BOY AND IMAGINE DRAGONS WAS PLAYED AND I LOST MY SHIT DURING THOSE PERFORMANCES NOT EVEN GONNA LIE
and I actually wore my corset out in the open around people and I felt good and I DANCED ON THE FUCKING STAGE AFTER EVERYTHING WAS OVER FOR A WHOLE SONG???
like wow that was
just
overcoming so much of the fear that I have of like... doing something that I enjoy in front of people. like the reason I don't dance is because I'm fuckin terrified of that shit but I did it and I felt good and my body is sore because of so much exercise.
but it was all so wonderful. it was something I needed to like.. boost my confidence. because my self-esteem is shit. it was just the best. and we all got waffle house after we got out!
I think like the only bad thing was not being able to breathe for a little while I was at LeBuzz because I didn't have my inhaler and my mom was harassing me, but I don't even care
it was just absolutely fantastic and I wanna do it again.
and then today was
well
okay??? I guess? like I woke up this morning at exactly 8AM and threw up and I called to get out of work and my boss was able to find someone to cover the rest of my shift so I worked like... three hours I think? which sucks for me because, well..
one, i'm sick and i don't wanna be out in the open potentially getting people sick
two, less money--and I kinda need that shit, y'know?
but it was okay because it wasn't all that bad and I was workin with Steve and Zach and they're great and I was able to go home and just get some more medicine and relax. and I'm going to bed early tonight.
and welp. that's it.
good things have been happening and they've made me feel better. and I'm gonna keep trying to make all these good things stay in my life because I don't wanna be sad. like I know it's gonna happen, but I'm gonna fight for my happiness.
and yeah that's really it this time. and if you read this, thank you. :)
now if you'll excuse me, it's time for me to tell myself how fierce and fine I am. bye~~
