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wanting to kill myself very badly on this beautiful snowy morning

everything feels Bad

hate being suicidal. like bitch what are you. 15 years old? be for real right now. Love For Love's Sake didn't raise you to be like this

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me after i help two people in one day: hey so i'm the worst human alive and i should not exist and am a mistake

#negativity #depressposting #like logically. logically. i realise that i'm not as much of a scumbag as many other people #both times there were other people around and no one would fucking even think of helping a poor old man #who is visibly struggling to get home/is lost and confused #they were even mean and dismissive #but every time i help someone it feels like it's not enough. i shouldn't have just ordered him a taxi home #i should have also ridden with him to make sure he got there and didn't get lost again #i shouldn't have just helped that man walk home on the slippery ice #i should have also listened to him talk about life without spacing out #it always feels like i don't do enough #what is my motivation. did i actually help. why didn't i do more #it always ends up with ah. i am in fact pretty fucking awful and will always be

back to feeling terrible i knew that good mood wouldn't last long, the dopamine drop always catches you. ugh bpd is the worst shit ever why isn't anyone doing anything about destroying it with knives and hammers..

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i think my biggest problem is i would not want to be friends with the kind of person that i am. i dislike my personality that much. i'm always looking at my thoughts and go "wow. bitch i would be staying kilometers away from you if you were not myself"

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it's annoying that i spend every working day waiting for when my day off comes so i can finally rest and then end up spending more than half of my day off trying not to think that everyone who knows me hates me

#mine #depressposting #negativity #maybe i shouldn't quit my terrible job. if i'm unemployed i will have too much free time to think about this

the thing stopping me from killing myself now is a 10 hour long work day. i'm too busy to think about it on the company clock so if we subtract my sleep time, 2 hours of pre-bedtime blissful fic reading and 1 hour of "just woke up and need to get ready" in the morning. it only leaves me with 2 hours of thinking about killing myself per day. which is kind of bearable

#depressposting #negativity #mine #i want to. i want to very bad but thank god i'm too tired #also fic reading might just as well be called holy spring reading because i can't handle new stuff right now man #and holy spring is my sacred text

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