#deprssion

[sleepymeowzidol]

Lemon is still awake..its 1:15 am

Lemon knows she is so fucking cooked

[usha7083]

The most bitter and poisonous thing that tastes sweet is love and people drink it until they realise too late its consequences.

[purplehalnw]

Okay so apparently from what I've heard from other posts, some side effects of depression are memory problems and dissociation.

So, since Lucifer has depression this explains why he forgot abt Charlie telling him abt the hotel over the phone last time they called and why he said "about what?" when Charlie asked "what do think?" after they'd been talking abt and walking around the hotel for a while.

And tbh this makes me really sad because Charlie clearly doesn't know that her dad's depressed and I'm pretty sure he's trying to hide it from her just judging by their talk over the phone:

"You know where I am Dad, I've told you before. Or did you not listen?"

"No, no, no. Just forgot... I've just been really busy."

Like literally just hearing this exchange alone makes me incredibly sad.

And his depression is probably like the basis for why their relationship was strained. Like I'm sure Lucifer didn't want Charlie to see him during his bad days so he just stopped contacting her except occasionally and that made her think that he didn't want anything to do with her and that in turn made him think that she wanted nothing to with him 😭.

[teathepumpkinmoth]

Hey yall I'm back from my two months of bedrotting and denying I need medication for my worsening adhd and whatever else is wrong in this noodle.

[ktoto6634]

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This is roo. They’re an oc i made that’s unintentionally an avatar of the lonely. I made them to process my feelings of loneliness and invisibility among “friends”.

Aren’t they cute?

@pineconnie

[mariposas8494]

Yup

[usha7083]

I want to heal but the hardest part of healing isn't feeling hurt it's the numbness the inbetween feeling where your almost over it but your heart still aches the sting of pain when your faced with the familiar figures of past that's the hardest part of healing recognising that yes it still matters and it still hurts, it still has control over me but it's not intense anymore and slowly i believe that I'll get over it because building takes time so does dismantling something. Strings of heart tangled cannot be cut with scissors you have to gently separate them one by one with your fingers until they bleed.