"Now Kanaya is starting to make me a little sad. This last line here? That sounds like someone who has consigned her fate, that she knows she’s going to die eventually..." Are you sure that is what she means? I had always taken it to mean that there are plenty of other reasons she doesn't want to help him. She doesn't strike me as suicidal. Tho i admit I am bad at judging peoples emotions sometimes.
Here is @random2908 in another ask:
Hmm… I took Kanaya’s line as more being that assurances of her own preservation wouldn’t be sufficient to convince her to assist in the genocide of her species, because she’s not so extremely selfish that her own preservation would be her only concern. Rather than that she’s resigned to her own death.
And here is @mageddondreams in another:
i like the way you come up with new angles on things I had not thought of, but sometimes they make me a little sad: when you read "Speculate For A Moment That Self Preservation Might Not Be What Would Sway My Decision" as Kanaya being resigned to dying rather than 'you know, not everybody is self-centred to the exclusion of all else like you are" was one of those moments.
First off, I am sorry. I must be having a hard time clarifying my thoughts lately, because this isn’t the first time that this has happened. It wasn’t my intention to be morbid, but that doesn’t change the fact that it happened, and I apologize.
Second, you all have much better interpretations of what I was trying (and failing) to convey. My train of thought was that Kanaya sees the destruction of the planet as a certainty, and her death may happen because of it, and since she’s seen the destruction in the clouds, it’s not exactly something she can change. In fact, she knows that playing the game is integral to it, so she’s resigned to the fact that she’s going to have a hand in the destruction, and her death might be a possibility of it. CA’s stating that he wouldn’t kill her doesn’t phase her, because she knows the certainty of Alternia’s destruction.
I don’t think she’s suicidal. I think she’s more concerned with the big picture. “Look, I don’t really care if you’re trying to kill me or not; we have bigger fish to fry, so why don’t we just get on with it?”
But again, I am sorry for what I said.
