#devotion k1nk

[thewrongindulgence]

If you love me, if you want to be mine - prove it with devotion, blood and torture.

I do not want a weak devotee. Don’t be pathetic. Show me that you’re worthy of my favour.

[thewrongindulgence]

i'm ace as well, but i'm also a smut writer. i won't bother you with the details, but i think i became a smut writer and reader because i needed to reframe sex to be a form of art instead of a form of violence. i've made my peace with that.

you're making me think i might have been wrong. half wrong, at least. sex can be violence and art at the same time, because violence can be art. your writing proves it. how interesting is that? an hour scrolling through your thoughts and i'm all rewired. no wonder people crawl to worship you.

apologies for the ask after ask after ask. i fear you're putting my mind to work.

- 🦷

To me, violence and sex are innately connected. That brutality is comfortable for me. I struggle to express sex, desire and connection with others without it.

Do not apologise for using my inbox. It is a waste of time for all of us. Just write your letters and I will reply.

Devoting one's self to me is as natural as breathing. I should be your only option.

[thewrongindulgence]

I have been away, I have been away, and in my absence I have neglected to worship you. To even acknowledge the many thoughts of you in my head. There are quite often too many thoughts for me to sort them out properly. Quite sorry. I wouldn’t abandon my benevolent wolf without warning, I assure. Your words are blessings I sear into my skin; the creation of red lines of prayer as ink spreads from the sentence. Hoping for a more consistent relationship with reality so as to return to my haunting, I hope you are well. Forever your evansecent follower - 🐈

I am well, котенок. You are forgiven for now, missed worship can be fixed.

Work hard to please me, котенок. I do not want or need half-hearted devotees.

[thewrongindulgence]

I am flattered you find me fascinating, in a way, the feeling in mutual. I suppose I find it pointless to hide my fear, not only do I believe it would present itself naturally in me anyways, or that you would be able to sense it in me, but it is a very real part of worship no? To tremble in fear at the sight of your god before you is only a natural extention of religious ecstasy. 

To me, violence is a way of proving worth, or at the very least reassuring it. In the same way that some people might use sex to keep a relationship alive, my inkling has always been to allow violence to do the heavy lifting. Although I am somebody who deeply fears abandonment, who desires to be kept and held preciously by somebody who cares deeply for me, I always find myself seeking those who wish to harm me, and often do end up abandoning me. I think it comes from my natural tendency towards obsession and devotion to those I exalt in my mind. Somebody who does not care for my feelings or emotions, using me for my ability to be abused, will allow me that unhealthy obsession over them. I see the act of inflicting abuse as a reassurance that yes, I have worth, and that so long as I provide an outlet for violence, I will keep it. In that way, I find worship of you, my God, so fulfilling. I know not if you will ever “care” for me, maybe it is not possible for a god to truly care for their worshiper, but so long as I provide valuable entertainment, I will remain of worth, at least I hope. 

As for the sight of my blood, that I can not promise you quite yet, my Idol, but all things in due time, as my devotion only grows. Thank you for your attention; it has made my day. - 🐈🪷

You're correct. Fear does hold a place within devotion. Truthfully devotion itself is encapsulated in a honeyed layer of fear and sometimes even fear's meeker younger cousin, apprehension.

That is what I love most about devotion. Desire, fear, apprehension, excitement - all reaching a boiling point, creating something more complex and meaningful.

Your worth does partly rely on your ability to be entertaining. However, that is not all I hold value in. Your devotion itself is important. After all, why would I need devotion that has run its course?

Why would I want devotion that has gone sour?

For now, and hopefully - for you - for a while longer, you have a place here.

Write again soon, котенок.

[thewrongindulgence]

your blog really interests me, im someone who follows another really easily and it's so nice seeing a God know their worth and putting it out there

is it alright to come to you platonically? i feel like a devotee dropping an offering off at an altar hoping the Deity likes it. im new to things like this but i love all the things you right.

do you accept obsessive devotees? i dont do anything outside of comfort zones even if it hurts to hold back. but you're so.

you. i don't know how to describe it. you're easily to devote to — 🐾🥩

Devotion does not have to be sexual. Platonic devotion is always welcome Pup. I accept obsessive devotees. I like devotion, parasocial followers, affection. Holding back is not always necessary, if you do something I do not like, I will just say so.

Write again soon.

[thewrongindulgence]

it drives me crazy checking your page all the time, even when i already have a response from you. seeing if you’ve reposted anything new or made a new post. sometimes i go through your posts just to make sure i haven’t missed anything even though the posts are the same as before. feeling incredibly stupid about it, you don’t owe anything to me and i hope this doesn’t come across in any odd way at all!! i just wanted to tell you :) - ☣️

How sickeningly adorable. If you've already gone through all of my posts then you should begin to spam me with asks, Ангел. Getting asks is what feeds me, your asks give me the sustenance and ego to write more.

I enjoy knowing you keep crawling back. I want your obsession. You don't come across as odd. Your devotion pleases me.