#dexanna

[dextynthemageofhope-blog]

*crying forever*

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When all of your flaws and all of my flaws Are laid out one by one A wonderful part of the mess that we made We pick ourselves undone All of your flaws and all of my flaws They lie there hand in hand Ones we've inherited, ones that we learned They pass from man to man There's a hole in my soul I can't fill it I can't fill it There's a hole in my soul Can you fill it? Can you fill it? You have always worn your flaws upon your sleeve And I have always buried them deep beneath the ground Dig them up; let's finish what we've started Dig them up, so nothing's left unturned.

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Now I'll be bold As well as strong And use my head alongside my heart So tame my flesh And fix my eyes A tethered mind freed from the lies And I'll kneel down, Wait for now I'll kneel down, Know my ground Raise my hands Paint my spirit gold And bow my head Keep my heart slow.

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You hold your truth so purely Well swerve not through the minds of men This lie is dead And this cup of yours tastes holy But a brush with the Devil can clear your mind And strengthen your spine But fingers tap into what you were once And I'm worried that I blew my only chance Whispers in the dark Steal a kiss and you'll break your heart Pick up your clothes and curl your toes Learn your lesson, lead me home Spare my sins for the ark I was too slow to depart I'm a cad but I'm not a fraud I'd set out to serve the Lord But my heart was colder when you'd gone And I lost my head but found the one that I love Under the sun, under the sun.

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Come on skinny love, what happened here? Suckle on the hope in light brassieres, My my my, my my my, my-my my-my... Sullen load is full, so slow on the split. And I told you to be patient, And I told you to be fine, And I told you to be balanced, And I told you to be kind, And now all your love is wasted, Then who the hell was I? 'Cause now I'm breaking at the britches, And at the end of all your lines. Who will love you? Who will fight? And who will fall far behind?

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I think I'm drowning Asphyxiated I wanna break this spell That you've created You're something beautiful A contradiction I wanna play the game I want the friction You will be the death of me You will be the death of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it Our time is running out Our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out I wanted freedom Bound and restricted I tried to give you up But I'm addicted Now that you know I'm trapped sense of elation You'd never dream of Breaking this fixation You will squeeze the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it Our time is running out Our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Oh You will suck the life out of me Bury it I won't let you bury it I won't let you smother it I won't let you murder it Our time is running out Our time is running out You can't push it underground You can't stop it screaming out How did it come to this? Oh

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If I represent the one that did this to you Then can away the part that represents the thing that scarred you I say, Get up, stand up, get up, stand up, get on it Yessir, I am no longer who you thought this one would be We end up around the mountain that I climb to lose you I said, I said give me the business that business could work through, I say, Ask me but all my wisdom departed Tell me but all my wisdom departed But help please at least answer me this, Answer me, answer me What's the business, yeah Don't take my life away Don't take my life away From a distance, yeah Don't take my life away Don't take my life away I'm a victim, yeah Don't take my life away Don't take my life away I'm addicted, yeah Don't take my life away Don't take my life away If you just press your fingers down under my skin (Go on and do it) Lift up, dig up, lift up, dig up and bleed for me I say, I'll bleed if you ask me I'll bleed if you ask me That's when, that's when, he said no

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Because When Else Were They Gonna Do It?

What She Said: "Come on, Dextyn! You gotta make sure we're safe. Do the manly thing and go scout around. Don't come back until the sun is just over that ridge. No, I swear I'm not plannin' anything! You just really wore me out. I was gonna take a nap so we could go for a walk when you got back. Yes, I know sound like an old lady. So do you, complaining and shit! Just gooo. I promise I'll cook the cattail roots for ya....Dex, just try them. You might like 'em....Okay, I'll see ya later. Love you. Be careful. Yell if you need anything. Yeah, love you, too...Get some firewood, too, Babe!"

What She Did: Anna Lime had never been one for theatrics. Sure, she could be a litter over dramatic. Sure, she could exaggerate the hell out of things. Okay, maybe she hated theatrics because it highlighted the fact she was an overdramatic little shit. So when she told Dextyn she had nothing planned, of course she was lying. 

The minute Dextyn was out of view, she got to work, piling up blankets, pillows, her pocket knife, the cattail roots, the shampoo and soap, and the water purification chemicals along with two empty bottles of water. Carefully, she wrapped her CD player and CDs in a blanket and closed the plastic box they were all packed into. Then, she scribbled a note in her journal and tore out the page - a note to John telling him where they would be so he didn't worry. 

Here was the plan: give Dextyn an actual date. No worries, no distractions, just some good music, food, and the stream. They would watch the sunset and she would teach him the constellations and it would be absolutely perfect.

Getting to the stream without Dextyn to support her resulted in several bruises and unnecessary cursing to the tress, but she had to hurry. There was literally no time to waste here. Most of her time was going to spent trying to do something extremely difficult: fish. Of course, Anna had fished before, but had always used professional equipment. Trying to fish by turning her knife into a spear was another story. After several useless attempts to spearfish, she gave up and ripped a pillowcase apart, tying one end on either side of the stream. This...also failed, but not as badly. Anna recognized a few skinny Rainbow Trout in her hours of fishing and she tied them up in the pillowcase, letting the fabric skim over the water so they stayed fresh.

The girl went to work on the fire, collecting the driest wood she could and assembling a small campfire. Anna figured Dextyn would bring at least an armful with him, too. In all honesty, she was too tired by then to try lighting it. Instead, she'd just wait for her mecha-dork to use that convenient blow torch in his finger. Ah, the usefulness of the half machine man.

Finally, Anna grimaced as she checked off everything on her list and saw she had one last chore: actually bathing herself. The last time had been enjoyable with Dextyn at her side...and then inside...but now she was alone and this was going to be a pain. Still, she got it done and not ten minutes later was she shivering on the shore, cursing herself for not bringing a towel.

When the sun hit the mark she had pointed Dextyn to, she was back at the camp, acting like nothing had happened. In fact, as she saw him coming, she yawned and stretched. "Oh hey, I just woke up!" she called to him, waving.