#diary chan.

[aliciatheblackk]

kay. i'm going to make a list of everyone i follow, unfollow everyone, then go through my list and refollow people i want to ouo.

[aliciatheblackk]

i'm taking a few self care days starting when i wake up from this rest. i finally ditched asummonersheart because i feel a sense of loss of connection to the final fantasy and kingdom hearts games whenever i see graphics of it on here. i hate a majority of fandoms on tumblr, and those two happen to be my least favorite, aside from superwholockian (bless all my friends who are in these fandoms and tag their posts thank). i love final fantasy and i love kingdom hearts. their fanbases on here, on the other hand. . hahHAHA. i still have my prompto account; that should be as much squeenix as i need on this site c:. i'm going to do my best to keep my dash clean and to my liking. i'll start unfollowing fandom blogs this week (finally get to unfollow all of the kh and ff blogs!) and start following more lolita / cfashion / kfashion / kpop / shironuri blogs. i'm super tired of seeing random ass shit on my dash, too, so i'll be unfollowing a lot of messy blogs, as well (unless i know you, ofc, b/c we bro's yo' wooh). i'll still follow anime blogs, of course, save the ones who post and excessive amount of snk and don't tag dat shit b/c yuh not gunna fly. i want to start following more vocaloid and jpop blogs; i need so much more kyary in my life and i want to be introduced to new bands in the jpop scene. hmm, oh, and i'll still follow rp blogs 'cause yeah bbies i read your stuff and cuties d'awe. i hope this'll make my tumblr experience a bit better uwu

[aliciatheblackk]

you can't claim the entire band as your bias b/c i claim the entire band as my bias

[aliciatheblackk]

this is my favorite comeback of shinee's this year I'M SO STOKED

[aliciatheblackk]

YEAH SO I'LL PROBABLY BE SPAMMING SHINEE FOR THE NEXT MILLENNIUM THESE STUPID BOYS I LOVE THEM TOO MUCH AISDJFKS

[aliciatheblackk]

at first, i was like, "what is there to look forward to after my birthday?" but now i'm hearing the mamas are in november. that means vote-your-ass-off month 'cause i'm thinking bangtan will be nominated in at least one category and i want them to win ;u;

[aliciatheblackk]

do you ever ship something really hard then take a step back and go, "no wait, this isn't romantic. this is so much more than romance. this is friendship." 

[aliciatheblackk]

I think one of the reasons I like reading manga with incestual relationships is because it makes me feel less weird about my situation. I'd really love the solution to all this pain to be something as simple as he and I talking about it and moving past it, but I don't think it's that simple. I don't think it's that easy, at all. And that sucks. I don't want to hate my cousin. I'm pretty sure my mom hates him and that makes me upset. But, like, what if we go through this and I end up hating him? What usually happens between the victim and the abuser when an adult confronts being molested as a kid? I don't know what happens. It's scary. I want things to change, but I don't want to hurt my cousin or to hate him. Blegh, I hate this part of myself the most.