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Good luck on finding a woman who’ll love you the way i did

I don’t know how many times i have to be rejected and get hurt in order to realize that i don’t love you anymore. I love you this much to the point na kaya kong tanggalin ang pride ko just to get you back. I love you this much na kaya kong magmakaawa para mahalin mo lang ako ulit. Well, i don’t hate you. I hate myself for letting myself love you this much. Just be thankful na yung babaeng sinaktan mo ng todo is still here loving you like shit. I’ve finally said what i wanted to say to you, i’ve done my part. I gave up on you, i just gave up on us. 

My first plan was to just go with the flow, if you dm-ed me, i’ll reply. if you talked to me, i’ll talk to you. Like what friends does. Kasi i thought i could be a friend to you and i thought i could handle my romantic feelings for you. Pero in the end, i thought everything was fine, i thought was fine. But i guess i’m not. 

Now, i’m starting to get a life without you. Not even a friend to you. Yeah, you’re currently having trust issues, you have these problems like you can’t handle relationship because of your studies ..  Sana wag lang dumating yung point na kung kelan mo narealize na you’re done with your issues, yun yung time na wala na kong pakielam sa nararamdaman mo. 

You’ve just lost a woman who’s willing to sacrifice and give everything to you. A woman who’ll love you like no one can ever imagine. I won’t say na you won’t find another girl who’s prettier than me, sexier, mas mabait cause there are so many girls out there.. But i’m saying that, good luck on finding a woman who’ll love you the way i did. 

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BV >_____<

Alam mo bang nabadtrip ako sa tono mo? Kaya pabalang din sagot ko sayo >_< kainis kasi tanungin mo ba naman kung bakit 75% lang ako tas 81% ka.. Dko na lang pinansin yung una mong tanong kaya napa-ha na lang ako tas inulit mo pa ulit kaya nairita nako ng sobra.. Atleast yung papel ko sarili kong sagot.. D tulad sayo kunwari nagtatanong kung pano nangyari pero kinokopya na lang talaga. Okay lang magtanong for a CERTAIN number pero kapag sa 8 items na yun tinatanong mo EVERY number how to solve it.. Iba na yon. Badtrip na nga ako na hindi ko nasagutan lahat kasi time pressure talaga ang haba ng process kung pano mo isosolve then you’re only given less than an hour to solve all of those number.. Samahan mo pa ng tono mo nung natanggap ko yung papel ko. Like wth.. Wala kang karapatan tonohan ako ng may halong yabang well in fact.. Puro kopya ka lang naman samin..

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Psh

.. After my ex-boyfriend and i broke up.. After all the aches that i can possibly feel.. I forced myself to be bitter in love.. Because i told myself why would i still believe in love when in the first place its like burying yourself alone.. In fact in the end, you’ll just end up crying. But i realized that when you forced yourself to do something, like forcing yourself to unlove someone.. You will never succeed. Just go with flow. Cry whenever you feel like crying because nothing last forever. Maybe tomorrow, after a week, a month, a year you'll just wake up and feeling alright. Just try to be happy with yourself, family and friends and everybody who loves you.. Just keep in mind that everybody has their own prince charming who’ll make you feel like princess, who’ll pick up the broken pieces that your ex caused you, who will love you the way you wanted to be love.

Right now, i cannot say that i’ve moved on but i can say that i’am happy with everyone else around me. I love me him.. Yes. I know that i can't do anything anymore to bring us back together again, i tried as many times as hell but when it's over.. IT IS OVER. I also know that someday, i’ll write here again saying that i’ve finally moved on.

Anyway, i still believe in love and i know that my prince charming is waiting for the right time and the right place for us to get our happily ever after. 

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Ansakit sakit.. Hindi ko maexplain kung gano kasakit tong nangyayari sakin. Wala akong masabi .. Masakit. Sobrang sakit. Kahit papano umasa ako na kahit 50%.. Possible.. Pero hindi eh .. Nakuha ko na yung sagot nya.. Sabi ko ready ako sa kung anong magiging sagot nya pero shit.. D pa rin pala .. Ansakit sakit .. D ko mapigilan tong iyak ko .. Mahal na mahal ko siya .. Sht. Ansakit. Sht sht sht sheuhebsbshsuushshsbsjsks mahal na mahal na mahal na mahal ko siya hanggang kelan kaya kta mamahalin

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HANGLANDE.

So imbes na magaral ako sa ict and gumawa ng assigment sa math na due bukas..... Nagsulat ako ng something sa mendiola files HAHAHAHA bat ba. Eh kasi naman po, wala lang trip ko langz and for sure wala namang bedan na nakakaalam ng tumblr ko kaya ishare ko lang :> i confessed that i have a crush on romeo gozon hahahaha ang gwapo nya kasi talaga </3 kainis. Halo halong feeling na sana mabasa nya yun and sana hindi. Malay mo that's the start of our story.... CHAROT hahahaha I'm inspired with a sophomore psychology student.

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May mga araw na kaya kong makipagsabayan sa kaprangkahan mo. Pero potek, hindi sa lahat ng oras nasa mood ako. Kaya mejj dumidistansya nako para lang wala nakong masabi.

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Lezeh.

I wanna post something about my first week in college but lazybones strikes so i think i’ll just write after a month though it will become My First Month in College hohohoho.

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Just friends...

Ngayon yung pinakamahaba .. As of now.. Na convo namin sa dm. I have to admit it, it was nice talking to him, again after 2 months. And i missed him 3 After tonight’s convo, i realized one thing. I think its better this way. Syempre pumasok sa isip ko to ask one last chance for us pero i realized na mas maganda kung ganto na lang. Nung high school kame, nasa iisang school lang kame pero palagi pa rin kame nagaaway how much more ngayon.. Na nasa mga sariling path na kame, different school, more responsibilities, more school works, more selos, less time and less percentage kung magwowork.. And ofcourse, were both striving hard for our own future. So imbes na pahirapan pa ulet namin mga sarili namin, and irisk ulet tong puso ko.. I chose what we have right now. I’am happy to have him as my friend, once again. Pero hindi ko naman sinasara ang puso ko para sa kanya, siguro someday. If kame talaga, edi kame talaga. Minahal ko rin kasi ng sobra sobra yung tao, pero this time wont be the best time for us. Kaso may isang bagay lang talaga akong kinakatakutan.. Ang malaman na meron na syang iba. </3