#did asks

[systematicallydissociated]

So!! What's CDID?

Okay so, based on our knowledge and understanding, and well, having it, I’ll give my best run down!

C-DID is Complex dissociative identity disorder!

You might say “but DID is complex” yes! It’s just a categorization, not a separate diagnosis.

You need to have a few things to be a C-DID system that aren’t always common in DID systems!

You have to have multiple subsystems, sidesystems, and higher dissociation (often leading in more alters). This type of DID is one that comes from often more intense more prolonged trauma. While most DID can develop into being 9-10, C-DID is widely agreed to be developed earlier.

In some cases certain types of trauma (RAMCOA) are considered needed, I do not have ramcoa trauma therefore won’t be discussing it but I have severe dissociation, a lot of subsystems and side-systems and a pretty high alter count. I also have pretty intense trauma in areas of things that may be associated with ramcoa, though that does not apply to me. I won't get into my trauma here, as it's not needed, but the term can be applied to trauma outside of ramcoa occasionally, though I do say it shouldn't be thrown arround! Just having a high alter count and subsystems does NOT mean you have C-DID.

I do not use the term C-DID lightly, it simply applies to my system well! It is not about trauma Olympics or anything like that, which some think. It's about being able to categorize and help your system heal by knowing how it works!

[bitterboysystem]

who's fronting x

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[thevoidedarchives]

😂 Any funny stories related to your plurality?

This took so long to answer, I'm so sorry Lance 😞

The funniest thing is when parents are telling me about childhood and I just nod along as if I wasn't born (almost) yesterday.

Like bestie if the childhood was as good as you are telling me, I wouldn't not be here. Peace out.

-Ezra 😇

[unsure-asker]

hey! another update!

I've talked to two of my system friends and one says there's a big possibility i'm a system, I relate to a lot of the symptoms, and one even said there was an instance where they thought I had switched (which I have no recollection of said event they mentioned)

where do I go from here?

[puppydeathfarts]

Hey what up I'm apparently the angry bitch just out of dormancy and I don't know how to cope do any of you have advice? Do you do advice? You can ignore if you don't ✌🏼

Hey, welcome back!

In my experience it's pretty unsettling. The world is familiar but at the same time not. Like a show you've been watching for years, but you miss a few episodes and things are just a bit... off?

What part of being back are you struggling the most with?

Oh, and from one angry bitch to another, good job. Anger is a powerful force and it's meant to be there if you're being treated badly. It's like a flashing red light that says, "Hey! That's not okay!" and many people with CPTSD grow up learning to suppress it or channel it in ways that are self destructive. Seriously, anger gets such a bad wrap!

In my experience anger needs to be expressed and validated. I need to acknowledge why I'm angry and have someone, anyone I trust, say it's okay that I'm angry. I NEED to be heard or my brain becomes a pressure cooker. Then, I can use that energy to act in a way that benefits me/us/now.

I don't have any advice but I'm glad you exist, because you're needed, even if you don't always feel that way.

- Ruth

[raise-the-dead-vinx]

I think it could be co-fronting then, but it just feels weird. Like i don't know if i'm me in that moment? Because i know i'm the doing the thing i'm doing but "being" me fells off, like i remember what i was doing but it also slightly doesn't feel like it's me? If that makes sense?

But i don't feel like someone else? If it is co-fronting and if it is an alter i don't even have any idea who that is/i am, it's like- just me but not...me too? I really have no idea if this makes any sense, i'm genuinenly just kinda shaken because i have no idea what that is, if it happened at all or if i'm even just overreacting-

I would never say you are overreacting, no, but it is possible that it's not DID/OSDD. It could be just derealization and depersonalization on its own?

To me it sounds a lot like depersonalization, which is one of the symptoms of DID/OSDD, but it's also a separate thing and can show up as a coping mechanism related to trauma or stress.

Maybe you should write down all the things you experienced, so if/when you go to the therapist you can tell them all your worries without forgetting important things.

If you get therapy, you should mention your doubts and your thoughts and all the diagnoses you questioned.

I am currently studying to be a therapist and I am sure when I tell you, just be honest and don't hide things from them. From your smallest fears to deepest trauma they need to know every detail for a good diagnosis, since a lot of disorders overlap.

I was diagnosed with schizophrenic tendencies because of my "hallucinations" when it was just my alters doing stuff while I was switched off.

I mean until last year I didn't even know that I had like six alters at that point. So who knows. Maybe you are just experiencing depersonalization or maybe you are just representing trauma (emotional trauma is as valid as physical trauma and both can cause DID/OSDD)

[the-simp-system]

-for whoever's fronting ❤️

you're doing great and ilysm. remember to take care of yourself 🙏📿📕 praise the bible

PFFFTTT love you too Cade, I'm currently in Church...multi-tasking....ANYWAYS

-Vinx

[symptoms-syndrome]

20?

20. If you could give newly diagnosed people some advice, what would it be? (Assume they're reading Coping with Trauma Related Dissociation already! Bonus points if you describe something meaningful, hard to accept, or edgy).

If I'm gonna be 100% honest, I think I'd emphasize being really, really critical about which DID spaces you make yourself a part of, especially Discords and other spaces where you're talking with people about their/your experiences. I think it's very easy to be influenced by seeing stuff online, and I think it's almost impossible to not compare yourself to other people. And I'm aware I'm being a hypocrite a little here, but I hope it's more of a "learn from my mistakes" type.

I think it's really important to get a good vibe on how you tick before jumping into Discords and other community spaces. I felt a lot of pressure at first to be like other people I knew, and it sort of blinded me from accepting that I wasn't like them. I can't and don't feel comfortable using Pluralkit, for example, and I think seeing everyone else using it made me want to use it too, which also kinda influenced me into telling myself only one part was fronting at a time, when that's rarely the case for me.

TBH I'd discourage using Pluralkit and similar entirely, but that's a whole other thing.

I think that with a disorder like DID, which is almost overwhelmingly complicated, it can be tempting to simplify it for other people, incl other people with DID. Saying "oh just this part is fronting" is so much easier than saying "oh this part is fronting with influence from this other part and maybe also this third part has some stuff to say," but IMO if you're just figuring urself out, your last priority should be figuring out which Pluralkit prefix to use for other people's benefit. Sometimes you don't know, sometimes it doesn't rly matter, don't feel pressured to just talk abt being one part at a time.

I know this is getting sorta long, but my second big piece of advice is to remember that it's very likely your symptoms are much more obvious to you than they are to everyone else. Don't feel like you have to tell people about stuff you don't want to because you think you're acting strange. You've likely been acting the way you are for a very long time, you might just become more aware of it once you can put a name to it. You can also tell people aspects of what you experience without disclosing your actual diagnosis. I tell a lot of ppl I have a memory disorder. Ofc you don't have to be secretive if you don't want to, just be mindful that once you tell someone you can't...un-tell them and don't really have control over what they do w that information.