i wanna ramble for a moment so uh hey
idk if it’s just me but the song “Cant Handle Change” by Roar (i prob typed the name wrong,,sniffle) is just so goddamn johnny coded man idk
i can’t handle change johnny cade, where do i belong johnny cade. he wanted to go somewhere that didn’t have labels force upon you. jsut plain ordinary people. that’s all he wanted, and i’m not saying that johnny is weak or scared, just done, he doesn’t want to be here anymore, he wants to somewhere else where he can live a quiet life without being hurt or told to scram, or hit and belted every time he turns around
like imagine being young, and your parents turned on you quicker than you could think, or that they disliked you from the start, that’s johnny, he doesn’t know where to go and he certainly doesn’t wanna stay in tulsa. he’s got the gang and all but it only does so much, he says so himself that it ain’t the same without your own folks loving you. he was too young to die, he was 16, he had barely been outta tulsa, and i like to think at the hospital, that with some miracle he survives the fire, johnny would think “i wouldnt be able to go anywhere anyways” like cmon hed be stuck in a wheelchair for the rest of his life pretty much. and i think so many people overlook that fact that he wanted to get out, that the first time he had been outta tulsa was running to the old abandoned church.
he’s done with the life he was given and he wants more, he has so little he dreams about having just a bit more than what he has, maybe a decent home. maybe when his life began to spiral for the first time, he used to think “i’m good enough, things can change” but now, suddenly, everything is wrong and no matter how hard he tries, he can’t change anything, and being jumped and labeled as a greaser doesnt help it.
he’s afraid, but he knows he just needs to get out