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[1bobchin]

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[thelovelysecret-blog]

A Day Without Coffee is Like A Day Without....

After me and my long time boyfriend broke up, my friends felt it was good for me to "get out there" and "meet new people"… i.e. get laid. They decided to commandeer my phone and create me the "perfect" dating profile. And yes, I will admit, they did a pretty damn good job. I started out just swiping out of boredom. After a while I actually got into it. One guy in particular really got my attention, I now know it was the universe telling me it was time for another fucked up adventure. We started talking and after maybe like, 45 minutes we decided to meet up for coffee. There was only one problem. I was in college and had no car… so me being stupid and a little horny, agreed to let him pick me up. This did not go well with my friends. They immediately started getting on me about letting them meet him before we left, which is totally understandable… I mean, we had only started talking less than an hour before… the first red flag that I chose to ignore was the fact that he was upset that they did not trust him. I should have just ghosted him right away… but no, he showed up, was an arrogant ass about it and in his car I got. Now, Starbucks was about a 20 minute drive away. We got maybe 10 minutes away and he lets me know, "oh! By the way! I told my friend that I would take her to the airport at 6". I look at the clock and it is 5:40. he talks me into riding with him. "this will be fun! We can just head there now and grab coffee afterwards. It will only take like 20 minutes". What the hell, I tag along. Red flag number 2 is when he gets some extreme road rage, cuts off an 80 year old lady and cursed her out through the window middle fingers and all. Its about a 15 minute drive but we finally get to this girls house, she gets into the car, we have an awkward introduction. That’s when she drops the bomb. The airport we are taking her to was not the local airport. She got a better deal at one about an hour and a half away… in another state. At this point I am thinking, well shit. I either go and am stuck with this guy for at least 3 hours or I say I can't go and feel guilty for possibly making this girl miss her flight because he has to take me back to my dorm. I suck it up and put on my "I'm up for anything" attitude and we continue on this crazy adventure. The car ride there was pretty awkward. We didn’t really talk any, just listened to music while his friend was on the phone with someone the whole time. Finally get there, drop her off and get back on the road to head home. He starts up a conversation and it starts getting deep. And by deep I mean him explaining to me that when he starts feeling mad or upset all he has to do is take off his shirt and flex in the mirror and all is good in the world again. This is the third red flag and I am ready to be home. He has other plans for the night though. Don’t worry, he doesn’t get rapey…I mean, he does a little but at this point I was ok settling for a one night stand deal. So we go back to his house to do the dirty so I could get mine and get the hell back to school. We walk in his house and guess who is chilling on the couch watching tv… his mother. Things got awkward. I try and not seem like a whore and try and have small talk with her as he is drooling/rushing me up to his bedroom. We start making out and he immediately takes off his pants and has me suck him a little bit, and by little I mean I got one mouthful before he pushes me down and is shoving himself in me. It was awful. He was flopping around like a fish and came before I knew what was going on. I got up, got dressed and went into the bathroom to fully absorb what had just taken place. At this point I was over the whole interaction and told him I needed to leave. He takes me back to my dorm and as I am getting out he says, "that was a lot of fun, we should do it again some time. I feel like we get each other" I gave him my nice rejection of, "maybe. I'm not sure what I have going on this week" and headed back to my room. The guy would not leave me alone the rest of the week so I finally had to let him know that I did not enjoy my time like he did, was not interested in hooking up again and that the sex was awful. I felt bad for the guy but it is what it is. I also never got my coffee so was kinda salty about that…