#didyougetmytext

[billybennight]

Here’s my shot Patton Oswalt and Meredith Salenger of at The Hollywood Reporter and SAG-AFTRA’s “Emmy Nominees Night”. @pattonoswalt @meredithsalenger #pattonoswalt #meredithsalenger #didyougetmytext @hollywoodreporter @sagaftra @televisionacad #emmynominee (at 8899 Beverly) https://www.instagram.com/p/Ciaw3rZPowR/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

[sneakingferocity]

oh my gosh, ily

well you’re a fuckin knockout so

[foundfamilyvevo]

can you tell me more about your idea of home and that sort of comfort that comes with it? what kind of places do you feel that? is it with everyone or with certain types of people? what kind of people? is it about the vibes in their homes? this is so interesting to me!

didyougetmytext said to foundfamilyvevo: is it about love for you? do you need to be in love to feel at home with someone?

ahh ok so this is kind of complicated and i’m not quite sure i fully understand it myself yet but, home is a complicated and dear thing to me.

something that’s probably important to mention as like a part of the set-up of this is, i’ve moved houses a LOT in my life. i’ve not moved all around the world or anything like that but i’ve lived in i think 15 houses? and i’m 16 yrs old so. i had 5 different addresses before my first birthday and the longest ive ever lived anywhere was 3 yrs, when i was 6 through to 9, and i think that’s probably been a contributing factor to my lack of associating the house i live in with home, if that makes sense.

when i was younger i actually used to think that i got homesick very badly, but the reality of it is that i just miss my family a great deal when i’m separated from them. i used to get quite anxious and upset if i was going to be away from my mum for a night, which i interpreted as homesickness. but then i went on a week-long trip to sydney and my mum came along and not once did i want to go back to our house, and when we did eventually, i wasn’t glad to be back. i have vague memories of visiting wales and england when i was little (about 4?) and my mum says that i wasn’t homesick the whole just-over-a-month that we were there. i was excited to tell my friends about things that had happened but i didn’t miss ‘home’.

a concept i’ve been playing with a lot is that maybe home feels the same for me as it does for everyone else and i just don’t like it? but that doesn’t feel right. there is a certain relief to getting back to my house after being away but more than anything it tends to just feel a little melancholy, a little empty. tired. it can turn into trapped. this is not the feeling i’ve come to know as belonging or home.

to me home is soft and sweet and sleepy in the best type of way. to me home is when you visit the new house that your best friend since birth, the friend you only see once or twice a year, just moved into, and you sleep on her couch, and wake up earlier than usual to go look at the bookshelf and watch the way her pale yellow walls light up as the sun rises while her cousin makes breakfast a few rooms away. home is lying in a hammock at party full of people you don’t know but with just enough people you do to keep going, and dozing and listening to all of their voices. home is my packmates (my found family) and the sound of their laughter and the bubbly ache that makes it hard to talk without giggling because i love them too much. home is particular parks home is photos of hills covered in thick grass.

maybe home is about being in love with people, yeah, but it’s not about romantic love, it’s not about being in This Person Is The One We’re Gonna Get Married love. it’s just about love, and connection, and the kind of sweet adrenaline-y feeling of being safe and accepted not just as something taken for granted but as something you’re experiencing, something active. i fall asleep fastest in unfamiliar places, i love showering in bathrooms that aren’t my own, i love helping in kitchens where i have to ask where the spoons are. but i hate having no one who is okay with me touching them, no one who will make me laugh.

home is connected and safe and active. don’t forget where you belong is my favourite one direction song because it’s about home away from home it’s about the boys being home to each other, and i love that, i love feeling safe and excited with people i love. active intimacy.

I DON’T KNOW IF THIS MADE ANY SENSE BUT GOOD LUCK WITH IT

[megit666]

Waking up to a text from Meaghan is the best.

[swagvoidrebel]

i saw your tags and i was like wait anu malik was in hasee toh phasee? and then i couldn't stop laughing, you're my favourite

[yuurei-no-yume]

thanks!

haha, you're welcome :)

[sneakingferocity]

i love you, you are an absolute gem!!! i love your face and your hair bc i shamelessly went through your /me tag - you've made my whole day thank you beautiful <3

HERE’S TO OUR ON-POINT SELFIE GAME MY GORGEOUS SISTER

[rapunzette]

didyougetmytext said: so for in-school shows? oh no wait for admittance into the school? how much? sry I just didn’t know this

It's to get into the school :) I think I've seen it be about £50 but it'll vary on whichever school you're applying for