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It’s odd how perspective can change in a weekend.
First the dull stuff, just for context: work has been relatively monotonous (call center job) with the affiliate company we work with to provide cable service having serious issues. I’ll call them “best tv” because that’s what my grandpa keep calling them. “Best TV” decided to do some kind of major update by essentially getting rid of their old system. The system they use to help private companies like us, or “PCOs” for short. So as a result, it takes about an hour to get something as simple as a programming change done, whereas before it took 5 to 20 minutes, max. I don’t have to do the calling to Dish after a resident calls us to get the change made, so I’m lucky. But on day 1 of the new system, I was on the phone for 3-4 hours, on hold for all but about 45 seconds of it, and I still didn’t get anything done before lunch. So that gives you some idea of what work is like lately: vaguely frustrating, not mentally challenging.
Anyway, on to the cool stuff! We had a golf even for work that I have never had the chance to go to before. I was on a 3 person team with people I know, but somehow I ended up sharing a golf cart with a surprise late entry: a girl from accounting. We rode in the same cart, and everyone had a good time at the event. She wasn’t particularly interested in golfing, but did give it a shot for one hole. (I am not particularly interesting in golfing either, but a free day off work, who says no that?) turns out she is a gamer like me. Pretty much everything she listed off was stuff I like: Starcraft, Warcraft, Smash Bros. She was wearing a Blizzard shirt, even. I think we hit it off pretty decently. She ended up giving me her phone number!
I am pretty stoked about this. I don’t exactly get digits every day. It has been a LONG time since I really thought about dating anyone in reality. It got me thinking about plans for a date- what places around here we could eat, what we could do. With both of us being gamers I’m sure we could have some Smash Bros sessions or something. Then my mind gets ahead of itself. What if this ends up being a serious thing, what if it doesn’t work out, will work get awkward in some way if we’re dating (we’re not even in the same floor of the building), yadda yadda irrational yadda yadda. Do I do this to myself intentionally? Is this some kind of self-sabotage, fear of success? What is wrong with me? So, with this being Saturday night, this week I have been on quite a spread of emotions. Dull boredom/ennui from work, a fun change of pace for the golf outing including some great company, serious consideration of positive changes to my life in a meaningful way, then finally flipping out about the implications/what-if scenarios. When I started this post, The perspective I was referring to was the fun change of pace and possible dating stuff, but since I doubt anyone is actually reading this, I’ll just do that “include unnecessary details” thing, it’s cathartic.