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Fem!Dimitri (Irina) doodle and some thoughts.

While Dimitri’s main and default incarnations are trans, his anchor backstory is so particular that it’s actually hard to put him in more mundane settings unless he’s cis, which is interesting to me… He didn’t go through the typical teenage journey of finding himself and gaining queer friends as he takes HRT and grows into his body, he was just put in the torture nexus and forcemasc’ed by the groomer who killed his family 😔 But he was already disconnected from female-ness to begin with (a “tomboy”) and viewed traditional Eastern European masculinity as aspirational, so the changes felt right even if they were forced onto him.

Since this all happens when he’s a child, it’s a huge divergence if he’s raised as a girl and it majorly changes the vibe of interactions that take place before his late 20s, since Irina is a whole different archetype from Dimitri… Especially in mundane modern day settings, it takes her a while to figure out why she’s always felt unmoored and “wrong.” As much as she idolised men and masculinity she was forced to develop an identity based on what she actually had, because being too divergent would disadvantage her—she’d be othered and unsuccessful in life.

So she ends up more of this femme fatale baddie type who combines her Natural Feminine Charms with her deep understanding of what men want and how they think to get ahead. One of those women who has more male than female friends, though the revulsion at being seen as just another slut who’s kept around for entertainment sometimes overwhelms her and she lapses into having more flings with women to cope. Dimitri is a gay man who sometimes fucks women for various reasons, but Irina is a “woman,” and if she’s mostly interested in (rugged, strong, powerful) men—that just makes her like every other cishet bitch who can’t escape their own social conditioning, right…? So if she defies that and indulges in Gay Sexual Degeneracy and Femdom she’s regaining control over the narrative—that sort of thing.

Even after she learns about HRT and gets to know other trans people, it takes her a bit to get on it herself because she worries about whether it’ll only make her more dysphoric. There are some effects of testosterone that are irreversible, and she’s carved out a place for herself in the world as “Irina” already—does she really want to throw that all away? Does she really want to take a chance on some pipe dream when she doesn’t know if she can even become the man she wants to be? If she’ll ever even really pass? Especially since, realistically, she’s not particularly tall or robust—average height, thin-average build. Does she want to transition from being a drop-dead beauty to just being… Some mid-looking short skinny guy???

In his usual iterations, Dimitri is so tall and beefy due to sci-fi experimentation LOL So Irina is more likely to take the jump if those things are available to her as well. But just regular HRT, she’s a hard sell until she experiences enough dehumanisation and harassment living as a woman in a cutthroat, superficial environment that she can’t take it anymore (an AU where she’s a prima ballerina is one such example). There’s a 25% chance that she becomes butch instead of a man, but HRT is still possible in that route too.

Anyway yeah this was super random and I tend to be shy / wary when it comes to talking about my OCs publicly, but I can’t seem to stop thinking about Dimitri / Irina lately so I needed to yap 🙇

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The other day someone tagged a dimieros pic as #women and I haven’t been able to stop thinking about butch Dimitri since…

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IRT the last backupload, Dimitri has double-standards about smoking in bed cuz Xero and Minkyu smoke different things from him and it’s a sensory bother (Dima is particular about what his sheets/room smell like since that’s like. Where he sleeps). Minkyu is by far more offensive than Xero though (he vapes and Dima HATES vapes).

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OC ASKS: Your OCs are in a room and suddenly lights are turned off. Who are they reaching for first? Will they reach to hold someone at all?

OOH THIS IS A CUTE ONE THANK YOU!! Answering for the characters on my Toyhou.se, but feel free to follow up with any specific characters you might remember from my past blogs if I didn’t mention them :D

In most cases the characters would just reach for whoever is closest to them rather than anyone specific (since I use them across various settings and their interactions change from AU to AU), under the pretense they’re familiar with their company. This is kinda long also, so I’m putting it under a read-more o7

OCs who are more likely to reach for someone than not:

Eve, using it as an excuse to grope the nearest well-built man (often Velo since they work together)

Rex, also using it as an excuse to grope the nearest cute and petite girl 🤦 I think he would get reached for by his FWB (later boyfriend), Kais, though

Dimitri, who’s equal parts protective over whoever is with him due to a strong sense of responsibility and wanting to make sure they don’t fuck anything in the room up; Minkyu comes to mind, though Xero is an exception since he trusts them to take care of themself and stay out of the way

Reis… but with malicious intent :((( He is absolutely using the blackout as an opening to infect someone near him with an otherworldly pathogen/parasite :(((

Tarou, with similar reasoning as Dimitri, but he’d also make sure to grab Reis so he does NOT give hapless people the Alien chestburster experience

Luca, mostly just being silly and dramatically pretending to be scared, though if it’s a more perilous scenario he’d reach for someone to ground himself, not wanting to be alone

Navid, not wanting to be separated from his friends

OCs who are less likely to reach for someone:

Kee, who doesn’t want to burden others so she’s more likely to just curl in on herself—though if it’s a dire situation and she thinks she can help keep the other party from harm, she might make an exception

Velo, since he usually does NOT gaf about the people around him—they can take care of themselves!—but he would make an exception for people/creatures that are so pathetic/defenseless he’d feel guilty about leaving them in the lurch (such as Haruki)

Junta, since I imagine this scenario with him would be a silly one more often than not; he wouldn’t be concerned about the blackout, though he might sneak up and scare his friends

Verrine is probably just turning the lights off herself to wish one of her sons (or “playthings”) goodnight… It’s hard to imagine her being caught off-guard; if the blackout is malicious she probably expects it and is either alone or with protection 🤔

Cherry would rather go for a weapon than grasp for a friend, though against his survival instinct he would feel more comforted holding onto someone (particularly Ram’s OC Harris, whom he has an unspoken crush on)

V. Aster (who people are probably more familiar with under the name “Vivie” aha) is another character who’s indifferent to the safety of those around them—reaching for someone or being clung to would just hinder their mobility; they can see in the dark and they’re going to be productive about it

OCs who don’t reach for anyone, but get reached for:

Xero can see in the dark (and beyond that is an otherworldly entity), so they wouldn’t be bothered even if the blackout is a precursor to danger; by default, their eyes glow like embers, so they’d be a visible beacon for nearby company to cling onto for protection (especially Minkyu…)

Ein is a renegade bioweapon with lowlight vision—he’d be kind of excited for danger to spring out and have a toussle! But otherwise he’s being reached for by a cautious Lavender (his mostly-human roommate who sometimes is sucked into his and Acheron’s nonsense)

Lillie would reach for a weapon and get reached for by her gooner roach of a NOT-boyfriend, Oswald (erectroswing’s OC), much to her chagrin cuz she KNOWS his ass is not scared and he’s just using it as an excuse to wrap around her and scream and squeal

Jet would just stand there in confusion (bro has the survival instinct of a middle-aged corporate worker who wants to kill himself, cuz he is LMAO), but Zeta would take the opportunity to grope grab him for fruity reasons

Anyway, thank you so much for sending this in—OC asks genuinely make my whole day ;w; <3 !!!

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random OC trivia on the mind: In AUs where Dimitri starts out as human, he’s male (usually transmasc), but in AUs where he starts out as another species (such as a mermaid or lycanthrope), he’s agender (usually w/ seminal reproductive organs)