Okay I know this isnt what I usually use this blog for, I just- need to not feel insane about this for half a second.
So, as of recently (about six months) I've started slowly noticing what are signs of a chronic illness/physical disability. Shaky knees, pops in joints that hurt, dizzyness, lack of appetite/digestive issues, massive exhaustion, the works. So far, in the process of a diagnosis, but it's very frustrating. My parents like to claim I'm living a "sedentary lifestyle" and that "I need to work out more." I know they mean well, but- Lets look at what lead up to the first pains. I did a swim team over the summer, three times a week, tried my best, all of that. It ended in July. I start school mid-august, and first week of school I have a sharp pain in my leg, hip, and a limp. It couldn't have been any more than a month at most. Muscle shouldn't go bad that quick, right? Leg muscles? Along with that, my shoulder has been consistently loose for about two years, and has gotten bad over time. progressivly. It's now clicking when I rotate it (not noise, but rotation.) And this march, when me and my family went to disney, on day three of the park I had to step out of a queue because I couldn't stand in place. I was mildly nauseous and maybe a tad lightheaded but it was pain. Pain in my leg. I was limping for a good day or so at the park, until nightfall. And maybe even as a kid, when we'd go to airports, I'd walk so much (to me at the time) it felt like i had sprained my ankle. Obviously I didn't, but it hurt enough I would go on tip toes. Now and days I have a full on limp, and while I usually don't have sharp pain unless its a bad day, I'm always exhausted and will have a light limp in my right leg. It's not just muscle deterioration, right? This sudden worsening?? I'm in musical. I do Kendo. I just started swim. And yet It's not getting better. I'm not being lazy...