september 30, 2025
thankful for adhd medication rn!!! i love being able to study and do things without a weird contest with my brain. currently working on my accounting. it's not hard, it's just new!!
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september 30, 2025
thankful for adhd medication rn!!! i love being able to study and do things without a weird contest with my brain. currently working on my accounting. it's not hard, it's just new!!
music || goal of the century - gang of youths
holy shit. this week has been a mess. less of a mess and more of me sleeping through most days. I think I need my meds upped,,,or be better at taking them. doing my best. I did go and play magic the gathering with my friends today for the first time in like 3 months though!!! that is a win. tmrw I’m helping my friend w their thesis film at the zoo so thats also exciting!!! anyways you can do it I’m strong ur strong we are all so cool I mean it. also listen to the mountain by gorillaz. love u!
August 27, 2024 • Tuesday
[vlog #1]
I tried filming a study timelapse for the first time!!! I think it came out okay?? Lemme know in the notes :3
Today was actually pretty good. I'm being consistent in my 8-5 sleep schedule, and the mornings are always so peaceful. I've started posting a bit on my studygram too, but really, that's only for trying something new. I'm a Tumblr user through and through :D
I studied OS (operating systems). Pretty interesting so far. We haven't started Computer Networks class yet, and I'm kinda looking forward to it. Hopefully all these theory heavy subjects don't kick my ass (narrows eyes at CA during last semester)
🎧 If I was in love with you... — Brandon Rosen
Habitica
An ADHD saviour
You gain points for finishing tasks and building habits.
You can get eggs and potions to hatch pets and earn food to grow your pets.
DOPAMINE!!!
You can enter challenges to get gems to join special challenges
You can join parties to work together on quests and have group accountability
You can log achievements and convince yourself to do the things you need to do (this is also great for spoonies, without it I would just never get out of bed with exhaustion)
I started off in college as an education major wanting to be a middle school science teacher, but ended up quitting that because of how ableist the major was.
I switched to an agriculture degree because I grew up on a farm, and during 2020 I was constantly at home and convinced myself I could physically do the work, and I completed that degree despite the professors being ableist and morally questionable.
While I was an Ag major, I was working for the geology museum on campus, and decided to get my Masters degree in museum studies. During my studies, I realized how disabled people are constantly left out of deai discussions in the museum field, only ever seen as potential visitors and never potential workers, and so I finished my degree with independent research into how disabled staff are treated.
During my last semester in grad school, I started working as a substitute teacher and realized that my education major professors were wrong; I as a disabled person can totally be a teacher without a problem. My grad school advisor also told me that a lot of myself professionals go back and forth between the school system and museums. So I'm taking the leap to try to become a teacher
I just took my GACE (the Georgia certification test) and passed at a professional level! Once I am hired by a school, I will start taking the remainder of classes that I need to be considered a full fledged teacher
I've literally just made a circle, but the agriculture and museum studies degrees are still a huge help to me as a science educator. Other than space, agriculture perfectly set me up to understand everything required for students to learn and places me in a good spot to introduce an FFA chapter to the school, while my museum studies degree has allowed me to see education from a different perspective than my coworkers in order to more adequately come up with ideas in joint discussions. Additionally, I included disability and deai research in almost everything I did from work to school, and as a disabled person myself, I feel that my understanding of accessibility and empathy for other disabled people has prepared me more for interacting with disabled students in my classes.
Not a single bit of my journey was for naught, and I no longer feel ashamed or regretful towards my agriculture degree. I'm also excited to continue learning and eventually helping others to learn too
Ive been doing a bit better. I finally have meds for migraines which are working pretty well.
My personal life is a clusterfuck. My girlfriend and I broke up a week ago. But Im finally getting into the swing of things with my honours.
I didnt realize how much stress the relationship caused. Im trying to branch out my friend circle.
My lecturers are super nice and I got the supervisor I wanted. So far Ive explained the situation to one lecturer. I do want to talk to her about the possibility of missing class if I dont have my pain meds anymore.
But Im honestly so so excited about my academics! With my migraines under control I feel like I have my mind back.
I survived 4 hrs of class yesterday and 5 hrs today thanks to proper pain management and the migraine treatment.
The only potential issue is if my ex and my best friend actually start dating (long fucking story - im still too angry) I will cut them both off
im friends with both but I dont own a car. Only a scooter. If Im in a wheelchair id have to essentially uber to campus without them
Financially not an option. However my kidneys are healthy and if I need to take liver supps I will. Because the meds are working.
All in all im doing surprisingly well.
The breakup was only semi surprising because I thought we were doing better finally. But in the end the overall damage was just tok much. There isnt really bad blood even if I know I should be more upset about some things.
I just want my friends in both of them. The made a stupid decision based in emotional want and worsened by mental health issues. And while that doesnt make it ok - i get it.
I just cant be in their lives if they do date due to a lot of history between us three. Which is tearing my friend in two but is why she ultimately chose to not continue. It wasnt a threat either.
For now I am focusing on finding myself again and my confidence cause the relationship really shattered that. Im building a bigger in person community again.
-XO Mel
I didn’t get into any of the PhD programs I applied to, even the ones where I’d spoken with faculty and been encouraged to apply. Anyone have any advice on coping with this kind of academic rejection?
24. April 2025 — Trying really hard to Do Things™️ and not let this depressive episode ruin all my days.
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