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[rebekah1213]

Camp NaNoWriMo

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Most people would be put in a mental hospital for having many pieces of. Personality. I don’t have different personalities –I am a writer & storyteller: I have muses!

I have given them names and roles

Emma is all drama!! Chlorine is chaotic craziness. Emma and chorine are sisters. They love to argue about what conflict in character are in and what direction my characters should go.

Jack is my male voice also known as Jack of all trades. Me has a loud & big ego or is always studying. If he doesn’t know how to do something; he will study until he is a master at it. He has a big ego and if his ego is bruised, it’s hard to get him to work.

Luna is my sci-fi & honor buff. Kelly is the scream queen of horror (she is either valley or horror depends on her mood: She likes shopping or blood.) Mary is Kelly’s younger sister. (She like things bloody. She is fearless.) (There is a reason why I write better at night. . . Kell’s dark side, Luna, and Mary all like to work at night. People at night act different than during the day.) They work on paranormal and horror aspects of the stories. They like to work on how my characters die, get tortured, and kill. They will work with Jack on fights scenes.

Sandy is my girly girl (sometimes she is not always with it as her head is in the clouds) she is all romance. She would add the softness/gentleness and the romance in my stories. She get excited when a character has a crush on someone.

Starre is has open hippie and easy tramp. She works on the openness in characters and enjoys telling and inspiring the erotic stories. (She has a hard time dealing with stubborn characters.)

  I’ve been so down (depressed) lately that even my muses are in therapy.  (I just keep having the word “You write too much.” Echo and haunt my head. I just feel I am not in an environment that promotes/encourages my writing. I have had writer’s block since.)

My characters are all stuck because my muses are really confused and depressed. . .

  Emma is sitting in a chair as if she is at a therapist office talking to air about how her sister Chlorine likes to watch others bounce in a rubber room while wearing sparkling strait jackets. She is also gossiping about made rumors of characters I haven’t even created yet. Chlorine is binge watching drama TV shows on Netflix, and believing all of the characters are real.

  Jack has been distracted with books and learning. He constantly has a book in nose, and is always trying to learn something new. He reads all of the time; in the bathroom, taking a bath, cooking; he has even burnt a meal or two. (Ironically it was a book on how not to burn food.)

Kelly thinks she is at a bar in the middle of the mall in which all of the stores are closed.

Luna is analyzing the sky and hoping to write fanfiction . . . none of her stories are finished.

Mary has been pretending to dig up random graves in a cemetery with Sam and Dean Winchester (supernatural) and Scooby doo gang.

Starre has been pretending to work the corner, but there are no cars.

  I’ve been trying to get them to work together on my next book, but nothing has struck their interest. I hope by November they are able to work on NaNoWriMo with me.

Introduction: My Muses. . . Most people would be put in a mental hospital for having many pieces of. Personality. I don’t have different personalities –I am a writer & storyteller: I have muses!

[rebekah1213]

Writing Confession #3

I have written more, in the last two months, in a hospital than I have at home. 

I have learned something about myself. . . I write well in the middle of chaos. I like having things going on around me that I am not involved it. It keeps my mind constantly going. The only disadvantage is that it can cause me to get drained and exhausted. At home, 9 times out of 10, I’m already exhausted before I…

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[adzest1986heavyweight]

Negativity!!

Some people fuck me right off! You try n try to just be knocked back by some small insignificant person with there not thought through comments! I was going asda and a bloke shouted at me to just say "you put weight on....what ya done!" It killed me inside because I've been working so hard these last two weeks and its obviously making no difference! I had a quick look on scales and I've lost 2lbs ish in 2 weeks that's shit for the amount of work I've put in! It's so disheartening and to have people commenting like that just makes you think is it all worth it! But I will carry on and make a few more changes and see what happens but from now not happy at all!!!!

[day-creeping-into-night]

a song made by a friend of mine, never heard of it but DAMN!! it's good.

[tomydears-blog]

To wait...

Should I be this worried from waiting for you so long? I know that I should assume from what you told me a few days ago, that I shouldn't wait for one at this time. I know. I remember, don't worry. It's just... To wait is what I do. To expect that it won't happen hurts though. I know that at least a word is needed. I really need one and I think it would be right if you did. It's common courtesy and you, you know you have it. You can do it. I think you're just being lazy or incredibly forgetful. Recently, you've gotten better at remembering though. You can do it. I believe in you. So I suppose I'll have to give up.. until tomorrow.