#dmmd angst

[orocana-joka]

DMMD ANGST!!! NOIAO ANGST!!!!!!!!!! Like what if when they move to Germany, noiz gets so focused on his work and leaves aoba alone a lot that aoba starts to get upset and worried. And it basically escalates where Noiz is spending nights sleeping at his office and aoba is hurt and they get into a big fight where aoba asks why he even came to this foreign country where he knows nobody if all Noiz was gonna do was ignore him

YAAASSSS

omfg Noiz would get so hurt by that because he doesn’t even mean to, he’s just trying his best so that Aoba can live a life free of worries, from money, to a roof over their heads, and food and everything. He’s telling Aoba that he wanted him to feel like this was his home, because they were finally together, but Aoba counters it, saying that if he really wanted to feel at home, then Noiz should stay with him, because Noiz is his home and shit. Maybe in a fit of anger, Aoba would even consider staying at a hotel/motel for a few days, because he can’t seem to get Noiz to understand that he’d rather stay together with him than stay in an empty apartment all day, by himself. 

And I fucking can’t because these two are so fucking stubborn too alskdjfahg 

[orocana-joka]

Angst huh? Hmm...well we could have a Clear one. After he took the knife to himself, all of his data (if you will) could've been destroyed and he would be just like his "brothers"

You mean like his settings for his brain was set back to “default”? Or where he would lose all data up to where he left Toue (and became more self aware)? OR when he was still living with his Grandpa, coz honestly, either would be horrible for Aoba.

If it was where he was set back to how Alpha and Beta were, I’m sure that the Bad End would answer that question tbh ;m; my babies

However, if it’s between the last two, I’m sure it would be even more upsetting for Aoba, especially if it’s their GE. It’d almost be like Clear had amnesia, only this would be more permanent, seeing as how Clear wouldn’t have a “brain” in the first place (or a back up system for all his memories tbh UAU) 

The first time he’d be self aware would mean that he wouldn’t be as curious about being a human. He’d probably wonder why he was here, and ask “Master” what his instructions would be every day, because it makes him “feel useful as a machine” and it would break Aoba’s heart because he just spent so long to help Clear discover that he is just as human as he was, and now, he was back to square one--no, back to the start, way before Clear’s Grandpa taught him anything about being human.

And I think the most heartbreaking thing Clear would ask Aoba would be “Where’s Grandpa?” because way before Aoba, his grandpa was the most important person in the world, and Aoba can’t break it to him that his grandpa’s dead, more because he’s afraid of what Clear’s reaction would be. Would he cry? Or dismiss it as another passing? Would it somehow trigger some of his lost data? Or just become more lost and forgotten memories? Obviously Aoba would try to teach him about everything again, starting from scratch, but he can’t help but feel that the old Clear would never come back. And he doesn’t know what Clear would do after everything he’s done, and that scares him because he’s not sure if he’s able to see Clear gone again.