18/11/14 10th entry - Double figures, Dongle and ideas on shipping, being creepy, paranoia, TRIPLE
Despite underlying criticisms, (mainly from myself) I have made it to entry 10! Not that that means much though. Entry 100 and I may start feeling decent about myself and laughing at my 0st post, but entry 10 is only about 4 weeks later than entry 1 so maybe not.
So, I nce said that I wouldn't ship people because if you have and OTP it is also likely that you will have a NOTP and not agreeing with a relationship in real life is sorta werid and wrong. But now I see how easy it is to fall in to a trap of shipping people. So, Dongle (smooth transition I know) (also I am tried and lazy so I can't think of good ship names so I hope you remember) - it's in the weird initial stages of both parties denying it, where it can either just wither away and die, or become a relationship and its pretty even split at the moment. We'll just have to see where it goes from here.
Something that really annoys me about not having an unbiased perspective is that you literally have no idea if you're being to creepy. Unless you are really good at reading people reactions and I mean really good, then you have no fucking idea how to be better without having a friend as blunt as a fucking spoon.
There's something that I wondered if I'd put in here or not, and I'm not going to put it in. But I will use it as a base for another topic.
I was going to do a whole bit about a person that I saw today and that I hadn't seen for a while, and how they've changed or something, but then I wondered what would happen if they saw it and it got me thinking about paranoia. Now normally I'm not that paranoid, I think that people may talk about me sometimes and that they may not be the best things they could say about me - but that's normal.
But this is irrational and I think that the farther I've gotten into high school the more paranoid I've gotten. It's also associated with self importance, so there may be something in this.
Finally, something that I thought of while writing this, Triple's been sort of a dick lately and so have I come to think of it. Yeah, I've been staring at the keyboard for 5 inutes, ut I think I summed it up pretty well in the opening sentence.
Yours wait-there-wasn't-a-COD-postedly,
