#dovie rambles

[lucis-dove]

I’ve sat with internship applications the whole fucking day, I’m so tired about writing about myself, I need to write about my sad, traumatised favourite doctors instead

[lucis-dove]

part 2 to digital era coming to you this weekend, jut 12k of smut, my bad

[lucis-dove]

You know something that makes me genuinely laugh as a non-American every time I rewatch a scene from the Pitt? No, none of the jokes, but it’s Jack’s ”what are you doing here?” and ”Oh I don’t know”

Apparently a man can’t be depressed on a roof in peace around me

[lucis-dove]

So your girl isn’t tall tall, but I’m definitely not considered short either. The other day I met a guy who even I needed to go in my toes to hug… GUYS😭😭 MY HEART AND MIND COULD NOT TAKE IT😭I FELT ITTY BITTY AND I LOVED EVERY SECOND😭

my fanfic self is livid ‘cause I just compared it too ghost’s height🫠👀

[lucis-dove]

Ok so like I can paint and draw, but I wanna be able to like… you know paint like a renaissance worthy piece and more exactly I wanna do this with specific moments of SIN that I just have so so sooo clear in my mind. I just wanna hold a painting of them in front me and just watch

[lucis-dove]

Hey babe just a check up, is everything going okay?

hi babes, I know I've been silent and I went on a quite sudden hiatus, but I'm good, time and life has just run away a bit you know and I haven't had time to be active until about know.

to catch you guys up, I finally finished the first course on the way to my bachelors and ended up with a really good grade, sadly my last exam spanned for a few days so I didn't have enough time to finish any of my fics nor drabbles for SIN before I travelled abroad during two weeks. believe me I REALLY wanna write those drabbles so they'll come during the summer now that I only work for two more weeks and then basically have nothing planned for 1,5 months (sweet sweet free time😩)

but I'm happy for the check in nonnie, it warms my heart that you take time out of the day to ask how I am❤️

[lucis-dove]

Is writing giving you a hard time? I’m asking cause right now i am writing a story for myself - i wanted this, mind you! - and it is HELL

Seriously i have no idea how you managed to write 20 chapters! TWENTY?? + One-shots! You writers are superheroes. I wrote two paragraphs for a rough draft and i’m sweating.

Legit, writing can be described by my weekend: on Friday I was God and, I quote myself, "so fucking good I could've made a better job at writing the bible than whoever did" (yes this is a joke). On Saturday I woke up early hoping to continue, instead I just stared at my computer before standing up and pacing, actually looking like a mad scientist from how I talked to myself and gripped my hair, it all ended with me drinking an energy drink (which I almost never do, not even when I have a long training session ahed of me) and cleaned my whole room and closet, not writing during the whole day, at leas not on the story but fleshing out the ideas to my 100+ WIP.

And no matter if you write something you want to or not you'll always sweat, cry and probably offer some blood up to a god or something to finish that first rough draft but hun, that's always the hardest part. You should know how absolute dogshiet the firs draft of any of my stories are, but I always view it as building a human body (weird, I know). You got to start with the skeleton aka the rough first draft, then the most vital organs, meaning the heavy and important editing, then the muscles, in other words the details connecting the whole chapter/one-shot and making it coherent and so on until you have the finished product (jeez as I write this it feels like the police is gonna come knock on my door).

I know you will do amazing and get through this and remember, how cheesy it may sound, the more you write the easier it will get and the better you'll become! If you want any help or feel stuck, just reach out and we can discuss ideas! Talking about things does wonders to the process of writing, at least in my opinion.

[lucis-dove]

I hate insomnia, why tf won’t you sleep body, I have worked a full day an will do tomorrow again, but nooo staring at a wall until 3am is so much more fun