#down mood

[huariqueje]

Sans Paroles 11, Without Words    -   Lizan van Dijk  

Dutch,b. 1970s

Mixed media on canvas, 120 x 100 cm 

[red-shirt-guy]

Does asking for what I give sometimes make me a bad person? Everyone has their own way of doing things and that's okay. My mistake is waiting out of false expectations but I don't ask either because... I'm afraid that will ruin or make things worse.

I would like to not feel insecure about my feelings.

[spookyemorockbabe]

Can y'all send me some happy/funny stuff? Pretty sure I just failed a test that could make or break my grade and I need something to distract me. Anything would be great 🥺❤ even some requests! Working on some rn

[lilystell]

god these last few weeks have been hard. i know its just my depression acting up again. bound to happen since ive been on a high note the month previous. I was going to crash at some point.  but man, this week has been hitting bad. my chest has been feeling tight like i want to cry, ive been nauseous and anxious and panic-y over everything. It started earlier but this week has been the worst. I just wanted the weekend to relax. Play a few games, watch anime.  Instead Ive been stressed that my shoulders and back hurt, ive been close to puking more than once, ive broken down into just a stuttering mess, been making mistakes at work left and right, and scrambling to try and keep/ things together

and then tonight i realize that i have seen any of my family members in 7 months. And of the 5 years ive been in iowa, only one of my sisters have visited me once. 

and fuck ive just been bawling for an hour. If i sleep now, its going to be nightmares, always is. its 4 am. I have more shit i need to do tomorrow. and i just want to scream. 

maybe ill just watch some hells kitchen and play more fire emblem till dawn. drown myself in tea and pop tomorrow to keep me going. I really want to RP right now too, unfortunately my main rp buddy has very limited internet access right now and I have this weird thing bout rp’ing with friends I know in person with like one exception.....

fire emblem and hells kitchen it is.  

[maedey-blog]

Ugh. Severe hiatus brought on by a rock n roll fight against an ever present "down" mood to put it nicely. Joshua G. has been on a night shift turn around schedule since the 22nd of January.... every 16th day off. So I feel like I have been living with a ghost of sorts. Over the weekend he said they were finally finished the shut down and would be returning to a normal swing. Sunday afternoon...Nope. Equipment issues again, take the unit back down, return to turn around shift. I try to keep myself occupied but it doesn't always block out those thoughts that manage to find their way back in.

I began corset training a month or two back. I am close to closing the back of a 22'' CS-411 from Orchard Corset. Although I really enjoy it I need to figure out the trick to wearing a corset with jeans. Because most jeans sit at your ass crack, the bones tend to slowly inch the waist band down.... never mind having to pee constantly since I sit all day and drink nothing but water for 10 hours makes the re-tucking a nightmare by hour 5. Due to a recent sale I picked up the mesh CS-201. I'm still seasoning it but I find I love the wasp waist better than the hourglass. There is also a definite give difference with the mesh vs. brocade, so it will be interesting to see the shape it takes on once it is seasoned.

In terms of sewing my western duster was obnoxiously too big despite the size being cut for a S woman. I have put it aside to work on other aspects of the costume while I stew on the next course of action. Pucker the hems by pulling them in to close the fit? Or make it the RIGHT way but dismantling and trimming it down? We will see.  

[mat-ngu]

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[nyacat39]

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