#dramatic feels

[dreamyoucan]

Do you ever see a post and think yes that's perfect I shall reblog that, but then forget to and when you remember you frantically search your likes hoping its there, but its not and you just feel :(

[bandgeekatheart-blog-blog]

And I've been told so many times that what's beyond Mansfield is supremely and fantastically better, but it is so hard for me to understand that, because I am only 18 and I have never known anything other than Mansfield. I have been with the same people since we were five years old. It sort of rips me up to think that I won't see some of these people again. I know that this is called "growing up" and I know we're all meant to, but I don't see how I can without seeing my friends who helped me through high school every day.

I still feel horrible without Katie and Steph and Matt and Maura and all my friends who graduated before I did. You adjust, but you don't forget and HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO LEAVE EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE I HAVE EVER KNOWN. Why am I, at 18 years old, expected to be prepared to go off bravely by myself and start a new adventure, a new chapter? I am not brave. I am scared. I am very scared. I don't want to leave anyone.

I can't even think about graduation or senior letters or class day. And I hear all of my friends talk about how excited they are to leave Mansfield and how they can't wait to graduate and how they are "so done" with this school, and of course I join in because I don't want anyone to know what a complete BABY I am, but I am so, so scared.

Why does this seem so easy for everyone but me?

Also I didn't know Paul Rudd was going to be in The Perks of Being a Wallflower, but I'm really really glad he was because I love Paul Rudd. And I give Emma Watson an A- for her American accent. You can tell she really tried. And she's so lovely. And of course Ezra Miller oh my goodness. What an actor. I remember seeing him in Law & Order: SVU a few years ago. He played this kid who was accused of beating up this girl in his high school, but it turns out that it wasn't him, it was the girl's horrible abusive boyfriend. Has anyone seen "We Need to Talk About Kevin?" 

[thetalkingcrocus]

No one will ever notice

Or if so they won't wonder why

Which is good because if they did they'd be a bit of a stalker

I deleted my facebook bio. The first sentence had something about loving life in it and the rest was special snowflake bs.

I deleted it because the first sentence no longer applies.